Leap day! :)

it was supposed to be a happy and leap-y day but it turned out not as expected. not complaining. I had some ups today too!

Before I start, here is a myth or a so-called belief for this particular ‘special’ day:

Leap years confer upon women the "privilege" of proposing marriage to men instead of the other way around. The convention was (in literature, if not in reality) that any man who refused such a proposal owed his spurned suitor a silk gown and a kiss — provided she was wearing a red petticoat at the moment she popped the question.

I don’t get the last bit of owing his suitor and provided she was wearing a WHAT?! haha! if you’re in the blue too:

1) spurned suitor: the girl/lady he rejected.
- well, that is nice.. wouldn’t it be a good thing to get a silk gown and a kiss even if I got rejected? haha~ :)

2) A red petticoat:

hmm~ that’s one belief.

The origin of this romantic tradition is long forgotten and steeped in legend. One tidbit often repeated in 19th-century sources claimed it grew out of a statute passed by Scottish Parliament in 1288, of which one of the many quoted versions reads:

It is statut and ordainit that during the reine of hir maist blissit Magestie, ilk maiden ladye of baith highe and lowe estair shale hae libertie to bespeak ye man she likes; albiet, gif he refuses to tak her till be his wif, he sall be mulcit in ye sume of ane hundredth poundis or less, as is estait mai be, except and alwais gif he can mak it appear that he is betrothit to ane other woman, then he shall be free.

confusing?

Another tale :

..dates the origin of ladies' privilege to the 5th century, around the time St. Patrick supposedly drove the snakes out of Ireland (speaking of tall tales). As the story goes, St. Patrick was approached by St. Bridget, who had come to protest on behalf of all women the unfairness of always have to wait for men to propose marriage. After due consideration, St. Patrick offered St. Bridget and her gender the special privilege of being able to pop the question one year out of every seven. Some haggling ensued, and the frequency ultimately settled upon was one year out of four — leap years, specifically — an outcome which satisfied both parties. Then, unexpectedly, it being a leap year and St. Bridget being single, she got down on one knee and proposed to St. Patrick on the spot. He refused, of course, bestowing on her a kiss and a beautiful silk gown in consolation.

This sounds more like it.

Honestly, I doubt I would be the one going down on one knee. If you ask me, yes, I would prefer a one-knee proposal (but not FROM me, instead TO me). I’m still quite ‘traditional’, which adds a moral to my story: looks can be very deceiving!

So that’s leap year/leap day.

Nothing special would really happen on this day (for me at least), now and ever. Haha! I don’t think I’ll ever EVER do anything like THAT on THIS day. Teehee!

Though I think Red Petticoats can be really cute.. HMM!~

Love, Hannah

I promised me 2 years.

I just baked a chocolate sponge pudding. Yum? :) [the Picture is horrible, it shud look like this:..]

But I promised myself that I should take a break for at least 2 years to recover from all these ‘fats’.

Self-betrayal?

It took quite a lot of love out of me to start baking again.

This time it seems richer in chocolate. The previous one had chocolate in it but it was too diluted. Not that I don’t like diluted, I love it trust me, but a concentrated one seems much sweeter. & I love sweet things (not over the board sweet but yea..)

I baked it and its now sitting on the table. I wanted it but now I’m hesitating..

First I betrayed myself, and now do I really want to go down that road?

These fats are really impossible to remove, and when it does, it’ll take a longer time the next time around to cut them off.. Hmm..

Should I risk it?

I keep hearing, just a bite won’t harm.

But a bite will turn into a mouthful then a meal!

Hmm~ maybe I should let another one who would appreciate it for what it really is to have it.. I should really just let it go.. Many more to come in the future anyway. *fingers crossed*

Love, Hannah

 

a talk with the wise..

Well, she is WISE :) She is Maria.

we always have a problem on focusing on bible study. & we’d be talking about life’s problems. haha! it is not bad, in fact it usually links to what we’d study from the bible.

we had an interesting topic today. About whether mum’s should be stay home mummies or working mummies.. she said that we should not be working and neglecting our ‘responsibilities’ at home and leave them to other people’s care. It would affect their growth and mentality as a kid. Well, its true, no?

Another reason she pointed out was.. there are many people that can’t find work or jobs (men) because the positions are filled with women. Therefore poverty comes in the picture. a vast difference between the wealthy and the poor.

That is very true. SIGH! well, my mummy was a working mummy. But I think we grew up in a normal way? Not being side parked and not being overly cared in a way. I like how I grew up, though I do wish I had more of the attention. not that I didn’t have them, just maybe at times I really felt neglected. But no worries. I understand, now, that they worked because they had to provide for us. not only us. my grannies too.

I thank God that we are not the ‘now-a-days ordinary family’ that are lacking of love and joy. I am confident enough to say that I love my parents and my siblings. and I certainly know for sure that we all have mutual feelings to one another.

But I grew up nicely this way, and I grew up with the mentality of being a working mummy. Should I change my views now? I know I know. I’m still 10 years ahead of myself. SERIOUSLY?! 10 years? :(

I want my grannies to see their great grand kiddies! :) it’ll be so much fun!!

haha! I am seriously getting way ahead of myself!!

& &!! we talked about divorce. It is so common these days that people take it lightly which isn’t right! sigh... I don’t know whether it should be accepted or not in this world, but I am sure that God would not like the idea of it.

Maria told me that it is actually very simple. Respect your husband and love your wife. It sounds simple, but to perform it these days, it will be a struggle. Loving your husband is so easy, but respecting him is a whole different thing. Especially when both husband and wife are working and when the wife is able to provide for her kids herself, it is so easy for her to just call the marriage off.

I shall remember this and this only when I decide to ‘tie the knot’ : Respect him and be loved.

Love, Hannah

I miss you..

This was me when I was pretty naïve and innocent (:

this was what I meant by me always eating while taking pictures. :P look at the size of my legs! BooHoo!

I am my daddy’s girl, powdered face! haha~ :) Hilda looks like a clueless baby monkey! haha~ I like.. Ooo!! Jie & I were in our matching PJs.. teehee!

I LOVE this picture! :P hehe! wonder where my necklace went. Hmm~ Oh! I broke it.. eeks!

& lastly, see this:

Richie is sooo going to kill me! haha! (: Ben & Hilda looked so cute, Hilda especially with her huge eyes and GINORMOUS cheeks and what’s up with her hand? I think she saw food! haha~ (:

…

Yes Yes, I miss those days.

I think the heat has gotten into me. I am so procrastinating now. haha! Just looked at my pictures and decided to post them up. (:

Love, Hannah

世界上，幸好有你。

孤孤单单的 自己享受这个美好的生活。

没想到会碰到你。

当我伤心时，你就会在我身边，陪着我和安慰我。

当我傻傻的，你也会低着身份而跟我一样的玩满天空。

我生气的时候，你会一次又一次的慢慢说服我。

我肚子饿了，你会陪我吃到饱。

但是知道了我和你是没可能的，你还要试吗？

你这样是不对的。

是没用的。

我是不可能那么轻易地让你偷走我的心。

不只是偷走我的心那么简单，而是把我的全部交给你。

那是没可能的事情啊！

我和你只可以做朋友，两哥妹。这样罢了。没少的也不会多的。

你不觉得我们感情只能走得这么远吗？

如果我们这样的继续下去，我怕回头是不会那么容易呢。

放手吧。

不再看天上太阳透过云彩的光
不再找
约定了的天堂

不再叹你说过的人间世事无常

我怕如果我这样的一直下去。。

如果我再伤到心的话。。

我是不能也不会再爱的了。

我不敢。

我不要。

我不会。

Love, Hannah

the BIG 2.0 on the 20th of 02, 20(12)

Firstly, HAPPY BIRTHDAY 姐!

now, lets take a look on this 19 years of being together! :) haha~

Here we go:

Here we are with our first nice Chinese New Year picture together. (: 1994!!

I like Ben’s epic face! haha.. (: & Hilda still couldn’t balance then! Teehee! 2000?

U were trying to choke me weren’t you? haha! & again, epic-ness boy!! :) 1999..

I like this pic. :) it made us look like we were UNITED. haha! but, looks can be SUPER deceiving. plus, I take of my hat off to mummy or daddy or whoever who took this pic, managed to get us to ‘pose’ n ‘act’. haha! (: Awesome-ness!

16 & 17? or 15 and 16? (: 2008 or 2009?

When I got back from India! wee.. (: miss miss.. 2009

Thanks to Jason Widjaja for the awesome picture! this was 2011!

Sushi day, 2011!

Well, I’m sure in between there were many fights, arguments, bruises, heart aches, headaches, tears etc. But by saying that, in the package, it is included with much love, happiness, and laughters too :)

Though we can be so different in so many uncountable ways, we still managed to be close. If I could take back anything I’ve done or said to you, I would say none, cuz it has brought us to where we are today. :)

Even when we don’t look alike, I’m sure our hearts link in a way that science can never explain. (:

My flaw is your advantage and vice versa. How can I ever ask for a better elder sister other than you. Though we went through many downs, it has reflected into many ups as well!

Oh well, I just pray that you will have a great year ahead. It could possibly be a great year, and it could be a bad one. Either one, I’ll still be here for you, as always.

This is another level that you will go through earlier than me. I wish you all the best in entering this new phase of life! v2.0!! hehe..

Love you 姐！

Love, Hannah

Love me not.

I seriously don’t know what I’m feeling at the moment.

Numb probably?

I doubt that there was any meaning to it. The color and the amount? If deep thoughts were placed into just this ‘item’ then I don’t know what to say.

I like it, & at the same time, I like it not.

*sigh*

What am I doing? What should I do? How and why?

I wish I had the answers.

你的关怀真让我感到心动

慢慢流下了眼泪

Love, Hannah

So I’ve fixed it :)

It does look OKAY here, but trust me, it isn’t as good as it seems. Though they taste pretty good. BUT STILL, I know what happened to the cake. Ugh.

I was trying to hide the cake while she fascinated my Aunt with her piano skills.

TADA, the cake with sparkles!

Jie with my PREGGY AUNT!!

YESYES, I’m going to have a BABY – COUSIN (how I wish its mine but yea..) Oh my oh my! Great news indeed. God really SHOWED me that He does indeed work in MIRACULOUS ways. when we think that’s what He wants, He surprises us with a different story! *sighs* AWESOMENESS

Story was, my aunt was trying to get preggy but always didn’t happen. and the doctor told her that her chances of getting a baby was 100 : 1 which is pretty much impossible.

AND AGAIN. God has proven Science wrong. Sigh, the meaningless lives people cling onto these days must be pretty tiring.

we actually ate the some part of the cake already then Jie said she wanted to have her wish and to be able to blow a candle. Well, so we had to retake.. & here are the pictures. Above (right) as you can see is TAKE 1! (took by ME!)

this will of course be TAKE 2! (My aunt took this pic)

TAKE 3 (aunty took this pic)

TAKE 4 (aunty took this pic)

TAKE 5 (took by me)

today is an AMAZING SUNDAY indeed. The day didn’t start out very good. But eventually God showed me that there was more to life than being sad and depressed.

& now, jie has hit the big 20!! and of course, SAMUKUJIE IS PREGGGYYYYYY!!

I love my life indeed. He is indeed merciful and loving!!

All smiles.

Love, Hannah

failure!

The Red Velvet cake I wanted to bake for Jie has failed! :(

Firstly, I don’t have two round pans! so I got to swap ASAP.

and when I was rushing to take out the first cake and place in the next in the same pan, this was what happened..

It broke!!! bahh!! :(

well, hopefully the 2nd batch would be alright right?

Guess what? when I took out the first.. I lowered the temperature to 0 degrees!! :(

and I forgot to turn it back up when it placed the 2nd batch in.. which means! it has been cooking for half an hour without sufficient heat, I have ruined the cake indeed!!!!!!

SOBS!

Love, Hannah

PS: Stay tune to see what I can fix up from the two cakes. (I think I can’t actually do much! boohoo )

Walking the walk.

It is always easy to just talk the talk. Then it gets harder when you try to walk the walk. But now what I’m aiming for is running the walk.

I believe that one day, those that really don’t matter at all to me will just fade off from my shoulders. One day..

Now all I have to do is to go out there and face the world with a smile on my face, I know it is lying, but I’m sure as I try to smile, it’ll eventually be what I really feel :]

Such an emo person I will become, & if I do become, I just hope that there would be others out there that puts a smile on their face and when I see them, it, too, would make me smile.

So you say, Actions speak louder than words. Well, that’s just what I’m going to do. no matter how difficult it is to accomplish, as long as I’ve tried, I’ll still get a pat on my shoulders.

I can do it, & so can you.

Believing in Him, depending on Him & trusting that He is always there to catch me when I fall.

PS: I feel like 若曦 at the moment. Sad - 很难过. But still, we’ll just have to go out and face the cold and the wind.

 

喜欢了，怎么办？还能回头吗。。？ -【 步步惊心】

Love, Hannah

Dandelions

Recently, I’ve been seeing a lot of passing dandelions :)

The way it floats around me makes me feel that God is calming me from whatever mood that I have.

It seems to always dance around me. Trying to make me smile at the sight of them.

Since they’ve been treating me so well, I decided to write about them :)

Sometimes I just wish that I could blow away my problems just like a dandelion letting go of all its worries, which makes them lighter and that they could fly like a free bird without knowing any boundaries.

But I guess that’s too unrealistic in a way. No matter how many times I’ll have to ‘blow away’ my problems, it would come back again. I guess all I can do is to lift all of my problems up to God & trust that one day, they would truly be lifted from my heart.

& another way of describing the characteristics of a dandelion is that I could plant all my hopes and dreams into each of it’s branches and hopefully blow them as far away as possible that maybe one day, it would reach where it is supposed be and grow :) like a prayer.

If only it is that simple.. But thank you, my little friends, always waiting for me every morning to greet me :)

Love, Hannah

DFO with Serene. :)

I found this dress at a random Boutique. Woah.. [right?] unless I have a super duper bad taste. which I highly doubt so. :P

I’m so into dresses, though if I think properly, its not like I could wear them anywhere yea? haha! :) But they are so lovely! so elegant! Teehee!

Can’t wait for the day I could grow up and design my own dresses, & wear them SOMEWHERE!

Can’t wait for THE day. But by saying that, that means I need to find the RIGHT one. Which isn’t in my mind now. Can’t I marry myself? haha! would be super duper awesome if I could wear a half tux half dress outfit! LOL :D it is NOT impossible..!

I love how God creates all unique ideas and that He allows us to express ourselves differently. Awesome WONDER. :]

Love, Hannah

PS: it used to be Me.Myself & I but now I needa switch it to Me, Himself & Us. :)

so this is Serene :)

[Missing YanWen] : the Banana, the pianist, the voice. :)

we still Asian baby!

She looks so pretty no? (: [@ St.Paul’s]

State Library of Victoria! (:

This was at the tram stop that I dropped her off! Au Revoir Mi Amor. (:

We known each other since the age of 7 @ my Home Church.

& since then, God has blessed our Friendship with patience, love and joy for one another.

No matter the distance, No matter the time, we have and will still be BFFs!

Love you Babe! Even though we have many differences, we still managed to laugh about it. Seriously, I don’t know how we lasted, but we did. & I’m sure you know how and why we lasted.

Love, Hannah