my silent prayer..

Oh Lord Jesus,

please send your guardian angels to all my love ones and protect them from any harm or obstacles that they have to face in life.

I pray that Oh Lord would also help me to go through my hard times with courage and confidence.

I would also hope that Oh Lord could help me find happiness through these rough times.

I thank You Oh Lord for those little blessings that you have blessed me with and also those around me that keeps me smiling through out my days.

I pray hard Oh Lord that you would help the needies out there Oh Lord, and that they would not have to suffer anymore and also that they would live their life knowing that You are our savior oh Lord.

You give me hope and strength and I thank You for that! seriously.. I can't imagine my days without you being here with me.

My last silent prayer to you Oh Lord is that You would help me wake up from my hideouts Oh Lord. I pray that I would hit earth with a loud thump on my bum so I know how serious I need to be.

I pray that tomorrow would be alright and I pray that I could spread Your word with confidence!

In Jesus name I pray, Amen!

scribbles of love

i don't know what is wrong with me!

maybe i'm not wrong maybe you are! =P

you don't know what it's like..

to be hurt, to feel lost

to be left out in the dark!

=(

WELCOME TO MY LIFE! XD

OK!

i'm not EMO ok? GEE.. i think i'm in love with this song that's all..

i feel people's pain! =( *sniff* <--- i'm having a flu!!

it's now 4.08pm

i havent eaten lunch.. i have to FAST!

i have to wake up from my hideout!

i can't always just dream! i have to do something!

i don't want to be the last in class!

i don't want to hurt you..

i don't want to go there because of you..

i.. i'm lost.. =(

to you ( i know you know who you are)..

i miss the way you talk to me..

the way you make me think of you..

the way you make me laugh..

the way you make me feel like nothing else in the world matters..

=(

i miss you.. but you've left.. why?

OH nO! i'm not being emo! ok?

i'm just.. expressing how i feel right now..

HAHAH! D got her first warning letter from school!

i wonder if mine got stuck in the post office or something?!

=P

it's nice to break rules! RULES ARE SO MEANT TO BE BROKEN!

i got 4 fucking Dimerit points just for wearing the wrong bra! WTF!

who cares right? it's better than to not wear any bra! GEE..

i have the weirdest school ever!

Azreen's brother is getting married this SATURDAY!

(cancel all my plans!)

i think i'm going! i have to go!

i get to see FARAH! =)

Shy's mommy might be fetching me over!

can't wait..

RON! i'm struggling to figure out what to give you la.. so HARD!

deep down in me..

i feel unsettled..

i MUST MUST fix this..

but FIRST i must figure out what is troubling me! =(

i hate this..

Love, Hannah

PS: ya.. i think not wearing socksto school rocks! =) <--- that's to S and the rest of the humans who is pestering me to wear my socks properly! DON'T BLAME ME la! stupid socks keep sinking in my shoes! ishh..

I have 3 man!! HEHE! only PAT, Y2, YW understands! =) oh BEN n NICHOLAS too!

I woke up damn late today! seriously.. I got dragged out from my bed! HEHE!

I just grabbed a bit of lotions and blob it around myself.. a black collared shirt and a beige pants.. =P

off I went to some Chinese place for breakfast with my parents and sibs (excluded Hazel)

had light breakfast then we went to a pet shop to buy a hamster for Hilda's collection.. recently all her hamsters died and she wants to murder more! LOL pity those souls!

anyway.. we bought one cute one! hope it'll mate with the female we have and POOF! more cute little hamsters! hehehe..

went for youth.. met a new girl named Sharon.. SHE's 20! OMG!

we talked about fellowship with David Raj.. he asked if anyone has felt God's presence.. I wanted to share my experience but never mind la..

i can tell it to u now..

I remember it was raining that day.. I cried so hard because of some family complications.. I cried so much that I want to stop it but it cant.. then I saw the bible beside my bed so I grabbed it and hugged it.. then I felt a touch in my heart.. I warm touch that made me stop crying and started praying.. after I prayed I felt at peace.. =) so yea.. I felt him!

that was one of the most memorable time with Him!

so OK after the whole preach.. Aunty Kelly wanted us to share our problems and we can pray for one another..

LOL it was funny! like Richie said he wanted to improve his writings and Jerome wanted to wake up early and Patrick with his 7-months holiday! LOL

so I said I just had some life complications and that I always have to fake a smile.. =/

everyone prayed then youth dismissed! but some of us stay for fruit plucking at 3pm! like me, Patrick and Yi-Yeong

so aunty Kelly brought we 3 out for lunch and bought some food for Ben, Nicholas, Nicole and Hilda which were in church waiting for us..

=P

on the way to YW's house.. we stopped by Nicholas's house to switch cars.. and while doing that we saw his dog! so cute.. it's a hush puppy! and I think it LOVES Patrick! hahaha

after that we picked up YW.. went to church.. fed the hungry idiots! then YW, Pat and me JAMMED? LOL! it sucked! =P we are a bunch of newbies I guess.. HEHE!

then I was bored so I went up to fill up Pat's bottle and mine with water.. and Aunty Kelly was upstairs too.. so she asked me what my problems were.. I told her.. and she advised me! THANK YOU AUNTY KELLY! you rock!

later on.. Uncle Ling came with the van and we all hopped on.. went to Uncle Liew's house.. was greeted by an unexpected chained dog! hahaa.. =) it's so active and cute! =) I want it!! xD

we started by seeing the durian tree that they have but only one small little durian was left on it so we went over to the coconut tree and plucked some coconuts!

PAT, Y2, NICHOLAS, BEN, YW and I competed who plucked the most! winners are.. PAT for 4 'MAN', ME for 3 'Man' and Ben for 2 'man'.. LOL man = coconuts la.. not sure why we named it that! LOL

after that some of us went to pluck another fruit called cikus'? its some small brown thing.. LOL not sure wat.. anyway..

some of us cracked open the coconuts.. me, Pat, YW, Y2 were opening it and drinking from it like crazy, wild humans! =P

then.. Pat, Hilda, Sharon and myself walked the little dog.. HEHE! so cute..

after everything we head home.. nothing else to do I guess..

so when I went home I helped to cook dinner! nice..

we ate western style today! how nice! =)

anyway I'm sleepy now.. GTG! nites my love!

Love, Hannah

PS: I am SO heading my way!

PPS: I still love him.. I guess he doesn't anymore..

PPPS: can I skip school mummy?

PPPPS: RON! don't leave me! hahaha.. I will never forget you!

PPPPPS: sayang.. I miss you!!

PPPPPPS: I hate my history teacher so much!

this could be bad and good news at the same time!

OH NO!

this can't be happening! =(

want to know what happened?

my parents asked us to gather around for a 'family meeting' just now..

I thought they were going to nag about cleanliness around the house and our attitudes or something.. BUT NO!

we talked about our December holiday.. my parents wanted us to go to Australia again!

*sigh* I've been there like for so many times I can practically draw a rough map for u.. LOL I'm kidding.. but i want to go to some where new! =(

good news is I will be there for at least 2 weeks! xD

bad BAD news would be I cant spend my Christmas here in Malaysia with all of you! especially Edeline! she will be coming back to Kuantan from Aus and I'm going there for 2 weeks?! =(

oh no.. this is bad indeed! I want to go for a holiday but I want to be with her as well!

EDDY can you be in Aus when I'm there too?! then we come back together? =) want? I can SO stay in your place! =)

sigh.. I want to go to COSTA RICA! or maybe GREENLAND! =D

I don't want to go to AUS! =(

and I don't want that LONG! I want to see Eddy.. and maybe Serene would come back? I want to see her too!

HELP!

Love, Hannah

PS: ok.. I should maybe be honest! I don't want this!! I was just playing.. =(

PPS: I think I'm crazy..

PPPS: I will hurt you! oh no.. I don't want to.. but I will.. unless you hurt me first I'd back off quietly..

PPPPS: I'm sick of my complicated life right now! I just want friends, not more or less than that! JUST THAT!

once you’re black you can never go back!

I'm not meaning the skin color ok?! its called from within!

so I had this huge row with my sis.. and guess what? all this while.. to her.. I'm JUST a sister.. nothing more..

and to her.. I'm just suppose to be there when she wants to let go of her anger and to complete a family puzzle..

why!?

to me.. she's like my huge sister.. I mean like she's where I can lay my heart out.. (not now anymore) she was there to gossip with, to laugh with, to hug and to do crazy stuffs together!

but now.. she turn into a person which locks herself up in her room when we are having dinner.. she's like this person that is just there to occupy that room in our house..

and when she's angry with you-know-who, the whole world has to suffer!

I'm sick of this.. I don't want her to turn into some monster that she cant U-turn back!

I tried advising her but she kept shoo-ing me away! =(

DKDC! her life! not mine so I think bug off would be the most suitable option..

my life is HELL I believe! not only yours! nor yours! everyone thinks theirs is hell but there are people out there which comes out worst so compare and observe!

*yawn*!

oh no.. I feel so sleepy now!

all I have to say is just..

don't always complain because you are actually more lucky compared to those that are so unfortunate!

and also I'm sorry for not updating all the time! =P

Love, Hannah

PS: I DELETED THAT NEW BLOG THING! its sucks having to do a new blog over again! SORRY SERENE!

you shy.. i shyy!!! =D

OMG!!
today is BORRINNG!!
so.. me and my friends were thinking of making a blog together!
now.. i've made it..
and i've decided to let THE WHOLE WORD know!
LOL
its basically just for gags! =P
teenagers life! (Malaysia and World Wide!)
i'm searching for more blog holders! anyone wants to join!?
you can crap all you want..
we can punk it up.. =P
just tell me if you want to join i'll give you the email add and PW!
=D
here's my email add.. tell me if you want ok? =D
cute_girl930729@msn.com
teenagers rule! =P
Love, Hannah

nigahiga........ LOL

i dont want to go to school! i hate school! boring school!!!!!

we had add math only today! the rest of the teachers didnt showed up or they didnt teach! ISH!
seriously.. i'm sick of school..
and i got the news that next week is examination week! IF YOU SEEK A----!! LOL
and do you know something?

to increase your knowledge and to make you a little less dumb...:

If you seek Amy actually means Fuck Me.. LOL!

i found out from DARSHYANAH today! gee.. i even put that song in my blog!
thank goodness i changed it! =P
i pity Britney's child.. they must be real 'proud' of their mama eh? =( imagine if my mum is Britney i'd run away!
and OK i guess today was an OK day.. =(
having tuition later..
IF YOU SEEK A--! LOL
Love, Hannah
Ps: i'm not emo! nothing is wrong with me..dun worry
PPs: watch nigahiga!! Symon and Kan intro-ed it to me! i think i'm addicted to it! LOL in YOUTUBE! ok?
PPPs: i'm in love with PS-es!! =)