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Hello. The name is Hannah (or Banana). There really isn't much, really, as to what I can say about myself. Everything about me is here in my blog. From when I first hit puberty to when I am still trying to figure out how to go about mini-challenges to every day living! Love, Hannah PS: happy reading!

Saturday, February 28, 2009

my RENTAS DESA.. (cross country)

I set my alarm at 6.15am last night so that I COULD be early.. But when it rang I switched it off!.. I WAS LATE! arrrrrr…. I woke up 6.50am! so sad..

dad fetched hazel and I to TAMAN GELORA. tones of cars there so hazel and I had to walk..

I took my attendance and was ready to RUN! LOL..

Joyeen came but when back later.. HOW SAD! but at least KYE LIE ran together! Darsinee had st.john so she can't make it.. =(

anyways I got my friends with me.. I ran with Chalani.. we planned to not run at first.. we jogged.. we slowly jogged our way to the first and second check point..

we slowly cut and cut more homo sapiens! =) so happy..

wasn't allowed to bring MP4 but what the hell so we jogged with ear phones stuck into our ear lobes.. =)

anyways we jogged, ran for a while, and jogged back again.. GOSH!

I was like CHALANI u can do it! faster.. LOL!

at last Giam came and I ran with all my might! =/ sorry CHALZ. I ran with bahiyah~ lol.. we were screaming in PAIN but yet I shouted " GO OLSON!!!!!"

yay.. we went together to our 3rd check point but she gave up and started walking.. PITY her.. I ran alone.. ran to the last CHECK point! all the way I was telling myself.. UR PRINCE CARMING IS WAITING FOR U AT THE FINISH LINE! FAST!!! lol.. I was panting heavily! so I slowed down a bit but I can't! my heart is POUNDING like a hammer!!!!!

I ran and ran and ran!!! till' I reached the FINISH LINE I shouted! yay~~!!! OLSON! go OLSON!!!!!! =D I was so happy but my eyes are blacking out so I went to the stage and cooled myself down.. gosh I tot I was going to drop dead! I was calling SONIA, EVELYN and whoever to give me CPR.. LOL! I tot I was mad! I'm a mad psycho! LOL

anyways.. when I got to the finish line it was around 9.00am??? so I waited and WAITED for any of my friends to reach! gosh.. they're slow! LOL! so I waited patiently and being more PATIENT.. until I saw CHALZ it was 9++ already.. GOSH!!!

we sat and chat.. we rested.. took pictures (which is not with me.. LOL) and sharing thoughts until the time came for us to hear the results! wow.. HOMO SAPIENS can really be SLOW! lol..

we waited until 10.30++ for the results.. my ass was aching from sitting THAT long doing nothing but to exercise my mouth.. LOL!

ok ok.. sorry for keeping u waiting from the results.. the teacher when up the stage and announced which BITCHES got number one or what ever number they got.. and medals were FAKE so I don't think its worth it! LOL. while the crowd was cheering and boo-ing I was listening to my MP4 until a bunch of humans beside me and stood up and screamed! I looked and saw it was JUST a tiny frog.. GOSH! thank MARINA for shoo-ing it away.. LOL! then.. time for the announcement of which houses is the winner! they started with the last which is CRAVEN!!! (*evil laughs to En. AZIDIN* he kept saying CRAVEN would win and always boo-ed olson! that idiot!!!! see who's laughing now!??!?! =P)

anyways.. third place was SCHLEMAN!

*drums rolling..* the first place is either REA or OLSON.. wana know???? the winner is………… OLSON like of course!!!!! *evil laughs!* I love OLSON!!! wow.. I feel so happy.. more than 10 points were MINE! muahahahahahahahaha! I feel so proud.. I didn't waster my breath shouting and cheering for OLSON at all! its worth it.. NOW the final champion would be our SPORTS DAY! I can't wait!!

*crosses fingers*! OLSON u can do it!!!! =D


 

love.. Hannah…..

PS: I finished one of my novels already! currently starting with 'if you could see me now..'

Thursday, February 26, 2009

when I don’t believe…………

when I don't believe in myself,

nobody else would.

when I don't believe love exist,

I won't feel love from anyone.

when I don't believe you like me,

I guess you wouldn't.


 

but I choose to not believe! because I can feel it! I know it!

its maybe true that u don't because u treat everyone the same.

and I guess I'm just one of your friend that always talk to you and laugh with you.

I'm JUST one of your friends.. =)

and I know you have a VARIETY of friends..

but it saddens me to keep thinking like dat..

I should! because it's TRUE!

*sigh* friends are telling me to confess to you.. but I guess I don't have the guts..

LOL! I'm a very weird homosapien! i just don't know how to tell!!! I'm afraid you'd freak out.

I guess you will! =/

*sigh* I'm keeping it as my secret and maybe one day I won't have any feelings for you already! how cool is that!??!? =)

but I'll regret if I don't confess (that's what Alya and Chalani told me)

how should I tell you!??!?!? don't tell me I should start off like this…

"hey ____, I like you!"

gosh.. that'd be an awkward situation! haha..

and If I want to confess I got to do it in person than from chatting or texting. because I want to see your reaction..

BUT! I'm afraid of your reaction. it maybe 'bleh' or 'ewwwww' =(

*sigh* I'm troubled!!!!!!!!!!! I don't know what to do!!!!!!! I'm giving hints but (guys) suck in hints!

I'm left with straight forward then.

I'll give it a try but l wont guarantee I'll do it. =)

*crosses fingers!*


 

PS: I like you!!!!!!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

so ‘malu!’

=) today is all full with shamefulness! so sad.. LOL

#1 .. I went to the stadium for my shot put rite? yea.. I didn't get to top 8! so sad! but I was happy that I could throw it further than the minimum point.. the min. point is 5++ meters. so far!!!

#2.. I misunderstood 'him'! he's evil! don't know how to read a girl's heart! shit head!!!!

#3.. after Bio tuition today, my mum told me she'd be late a bit. so I had to wait.. then while I was waiting I saw a car exactly same like my mum's! so I told teacher (quite loudly though) "teacher I go first kay? bye~" so I started walking towards the car. then all of a sudden a guy walked beside me towards the car too! I as like.. 2 person walking towards one car.. hmmm~ I told myself I could not been mistaken so I continued walking till I got closer to the car that I could see the car plate number to RE-CHECK. OOPPPPSSSSSS! it isn't my car!!! ahhhhhhhhhh!! I was speechless.. I walked so far just to find out it isn't my car! *duno where to hide my face* so I had to turn back and face the crowd.. teacher just HAD to say it loudly "eh! why turn back wan? wrong car ar?" lol!!! she's evil!!!!! i heard giggles and all I could do is to say yes and laugh as well.. but its so humiliating! GOSH! help!!!!!!

*sigh* I don't know what is wrong with my day today! my horoscope says that my 'relationship' with him will get more intimate and closer! I don't feel it!!!!! argh~


 

PS: I love no one! actually I do! it's you, yummy dummy!!!!!!

sad little (oopppsss its big) hannah~

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

oh my dear mummy,

sometimes my mum can be really fierce and all the mum-character but she is very funny! haha.. u know what happened just now!?!?! ok.. I'm having my shot put tomolo rite? so I have to let her sign my 'surat kebenaran' so her IC number was required too! I forgot so I asked her la.. but she told me no! "im not telling u anymore, I told you to remember it or at least list it in your handphone" so I begged her to tell but she wouldn't so I stood up and say " never mind u have ur IC in your purse rite? and ar.. its like u remember my IC number! ish.." and she shot me with "sure I remember la.." then I shoot back and say while going to her bedside and wrote down her number "hit me!" but no response! I looked at her noticing that she was pulling out her handphone! LOL! and laughed at her and she laughed back and started hitting me saying "at least I list it in my handphone! unlike u.." hahahahaha! my mother! she's very funny at times.. ish! can't live without her!

PS: love u mummy! and my IC number is 930729-**-****! hahaha.. remember that! muah…

tomorrow! 24th of FEB!

I'll be taking part in MSSM's shot put. just so u know. I was automatically in it since form one! I hate it! I know I'm small but I got the strength ok!??! anyways best of luck for me!??! I'll be needing more strength!!

confessions from my heart =D

I'm speechless because of you,

I'm excited just by seeing you,

I wonder if you have the same thoughts,

But wondering won't solve my troubled heart.


We became friends not long

until I start having this weird spark,

I don't know what of you that attracts me so much,

but I do know that you're frequently in my mind.


I don't blame you for anything

you still like her and I just started liking you.

I guess maybe it's just a normal teen thing.

Liking here, liking there and liking EVERYWHERE!


Sometimes thinking of you gives me this feeling,

like I can't wait for our little next 'meeting'.

we'd have this shy type of hi and byes..

or maybe it is just me.


all of a sudden I feel so happy to have known you,

or not I won't be having this feeling for a long time!

but I feel sad to be knowing you still like her,

I can't be compared with her,

she's smart, clever and pretty unlike me!

she's this ideal girl every guy wants so you won't be bothered by me.


=) all I can do know is to either forget this feeling

or telling you how I feel about you.

by forgetting this feeling might take time,

but I don't think I have the courage to tell you what I feel.

maybe I'd pick the first choice,

it may be for the better, who knows?


The future is unpredictable and maybe one day you'd fall for me too?

how I wish that day would come true.

like my all time fairy tale dream,

you'd hold me in your arms and whisper

"I love you and I'd never let you go"

wow.. if that happens I'd be speechless!

but I don't think in a million years you'd do that..

Anyways.. I will still be your friend just so you know.

love,

hannah

Sunday..Gloomy gloomy Sunday!

woke up this morning and start thinking what dream I dreamt last night.

Oh ya. was a dumb dream~ LOL

anyways. it was raining today.

thanks to Ben's nasty singings!
=P

I finally knew I can't live without my MUMMY!

she went to KL on Friday and its been NASTY without her!

I got to remind my dad every single time where I gotta go, what time my tuition finish, where we eating tonight..etc!

gosh! I really love mummy! she knows my schedule..unlike dad! =(

anyways. mummy's back today! LOVE her.

erm. I didn't exercise today! how sad. I feel as lazy as the weather!

just finish looking through my test papers..

want to know my results!? hahahahahaha~ sure.. here goes

  • BM – 63% - B4
  • English – 83% - A1
  • Moral – 40% - E8
  • Additional Mathematics – 55% - C5
  • Biology – 48% - D7
  • History – 45% - D7
  • Chemistry – 59% - C5
  • Physics – 40% E8
  • Mathematics – 75% A1

LOL! I know I suck! gosh! but I didn't study much so what ever!

I think every subject I didn't even revise for more than 15 minutes!

=)

but I'm striving for my next exam!

*crosses fingers*

PS: I renovated my BLOG! notice?

-still not studying-

Hannah~

Saturday, February 21, 2009

I think I might name my daughter's name as Giselle or Gabriella~ nice names! (it just popped in my mind..) =) if boys.. not sure.. LOL let my future husband think of the boy's names.. haha! I wonder how my baby would look like? ha-ha I'm think to far I guess.. =D

honesty is ur enemy?

I'm now, currently, not talking to my 3 of my friends. LOL. and guess why did we fight? because of HONESTY! that's dumb I know. but hear me first and tell me whether I'm in the wrong or right path. On Sunday we had st.john exam. so we four went and planned to PASS. lol. so we finished our theory as usual. we actually sort of cheated. haha. I think I got scolded from aunty sally because of telling my friends the answer. she was pissed with me. =P whatever. then it was time for practical (CPR, CHOKING………) then before Angel (our leader) came and call our names to go in the hall S and D panicked. I don't really know why. usually D came for the exam and didn't panic at all. but this time? maybe when S was panicked she panicked as well? LOL. its normal to panic so i didn't think that far. they actually panicked and went home?! and told me and T to tell Angel and Dr.Hew that they have emergency at home so they gotta go. (its called lying.) so I did what they told me to. but sadly Angel knew I was lying and I had to tell the truth since she guessed already. I just told her that they panicked and went home and that they will come for the next exam. I even defended them in front of Dr.Hew when Angel wanted to tell him the truth. *sigh* but on Monday I could see S wasn't really talking to me. then on Wednesday I found out that they were pissed that I told Angel the truth. wow. Friends. because of honesty I lost 3 friends. maybe I am a backstabber in their eyes. but to me I think I told the truth and was even helping the situation from getting worst. they could actually get a lot worst if I continue helping them with lies. but what the heck. I think I did the right thing. =) and if they want to lose me as a friend then I don't mind. not that I'm going to die without them or what so ever. =/ but seriously. I feel so sad now seeing them eyeing me with hatred. all I can say is SORRY. but maybe that's not enough for you guys. and if that really isn't enough then so long. I wont bend down and lick your feet for your forgiveness. actually, I should be the one forgiving them, they made me lie? ha-ha. seriously.

PS: I'm sorry.

Thursday, February 19, 2009

Sukantara 2009! haha.. funny!

im dark already! so sunny and hot for a day that should be gloomy. LOL! went to the stadium (mum fetched) and we warmed up under the sun! (stupid teachers made us stand under the sun! they are PLAIN CRUEL!) I think I can go blind cos of the hot sun! after warming up we ran one round around the stadium *panting all the way*then we began our sukantara by running half of the stadium! gosh.. I was actually wondering can my life get any BETTER.. lol~ so I ran and got 2nd! which means I scored 2 points for my team! yay~~ (oh ya.. my team is leading
actually! muahahaha~) then after running, teacher noticed
my face went pale! PALE! like a dead human! so I sat and took drugs to ease the pain! LOL! then I got up and wanted to climb the fence or the thing la.. I don't really know what's it called.. so I put my right leg first then before my left leg can even move to the other side it cramped! CRAMPED! for my first time! gosh.. I never knew how cramped felt like until today! (except for stomach cramp) I was almost near tearing.. so damn pain.. my friend helped me out from the fence and I sat down~ gosh.. it hurts! its like my muscle contracted and cannot relax already.. then slowly it was OK so it was time for LONG JUMP! I wasn't suppose to jump since my leg hurts but! I need to earn points for my team! and I jumped 4 times and all also got 2 points only! I should get 3 but thanks to my hands.. and every jump I'd land on my bum! it hurts! I think I fractured my coccyx! OUCH! and Alisson's shoe fell off while jumping the long jump! damn funny~ LARRY's shoe fell off while running.. lol! u guys should buy better shoes! and if that wasn't enough for a bad day.. I tripped a few times today, nose was bleeding while I was having my lunch, I coughed blood and my friends are transferring to another school! ARGH! can my life today get any BETTER?!?!?!? anyways I am waiting for my add maths and History to break my record of not having any failed subjects.. hahahahaha~ still waiting! LOL


PS: I'll always remember u wan la Jo Yeen.. how can I EVER forget u.. =) and Darsinee I get to see u in tuition right? Kye Lie, i might see u again.. dun worry! muah~

Wednesday, February 18, 2009

random..

hallo~ sorry haven't been updating my blog.. I was busy with exam and now its finally OVER! muah~ but now the results are dropping down.. feel so useless.. argh! and being in first class aint easy because they'd compare and compare.. ARGH! if I drop it wud be a miracle.. LOL! I'm waiting for add maths, sejarah, bm! stupid teachers are taking AGES to mark the bloody papers! lol.. I'm having SUKANTARA tomolo~ aiks.. hope I will do my best! =D love, Hannah

Saturday, February 14, 2009

The History of Valentine's Day

Every February, across the country, candy, flowers, and gifts are exchanged between loved ones, all in the name of St. Valentine. But who is this mysterious saint and why do we celebrate this holiday? The history of Valentine's Day — and its patron saint — is shrouded in mystery. But we do know that February has long been a month of romance. St. Valentine's Day, as we know it today, contains vestiges of both Christian and ancient Roman tradition. So, who was Saint Valentine and how did he become associated with this ancient rite? Today, the Catholic Church recognizes at least three different saints named Valentine or Valentinus, all of whom were martyred.

One legend contends that Valentine was a priest who served during the third century in Rome. When Emperor Claudius II decided that single men made better soldiers than those with wives and families, he outlawed marriage for young men — his crop of potential soldiers. Valentine, realizing the injustice of the decree, defied Claudius and continued to perform marriages for young lovers in secret. When Valentine's actions were discovered, Claudius ordered that he be put to death.

Other stories suggest that Valentine may have been killed for attempting to help Christians escape harsh Roman prisons where they were often beaten and tortured.

According to one legend, Valentine actually sent the first 'valentine' greeting himself. While in prison, it is believed that Valentine fell in love with a young girl — who may have been his jailor's daughter — who visited him during his confinement. Before his death, it is alleged that he wrote her a letter, which he signed 'From your Valentine,' an expression that is still in use today. Although the truth behind the Valentine legends is murky, the stories certainly emphasize his appeal as a sympathetic, heroic, and, most importantly, romantic figure. It's no surprise that by the Middle Ages, Valentine was one of the most popular saints in England and France.

While some believe that Valentine's Day is celebrated in the middle of February to commemorate the anniversary of Valentine's death or burial — which probably occurred around 270 A.D — others claim that the Christian church may have decided to celebrate Valentine's feast day in the middle of February in an effort to 'christianize' celebrations of the pagan Lupercalia festival. In ancient Rome, February was the official beginning of spring and was considered a time for purification. Houses were ritually cleansed by sweeping them out and then sprinkling salt and a type of wheat called spelt throughout their interiors. Lupercalia, which began at the ides of February, February 15, was a fertility festival dedicated to Faunus, the Roman god of agriculture, as well as to the Roman founders Romulus and Remus.


 

stolen info from: http://www.history.com/content/valentine/history-of-valentine-s-day#top

my week of tests!

yes! I meant tests! my first form 4 tests! scary? actually it was suppose to be easy but u know me.. =D oops~

first of all I'd flunk my add math. it is hard since my tuition didn't help much and that my school teacher sucks! my school teacher went one whole round around the bush and it totally makes my head spin so I'm flunking add math and I am seriously smiling! ha-ha. can u believe it?

biology was okay.. but history Is the question! I maybe flunking it too! yay! I'm flunking two subjects! seriously??!! it is my FIRST test.. can I be any serious!?

if my parents' finds out, i maybe half dead and u might end up seeing me in the hospital~ lol. if I drop class I could actually laugh too! I dun wana be in first class! I cant stand the first class! it is.. scary! I cant eat in class. I cant hug my best friends since I dun really have a connection with the first class. =P

PS: I'm having Physics and Chemistry and MODERN MATHS.. sap sap water, maybe?! lol..

Friday, February 6, 2009

a little YAY! a lot of boo…?

hello.

I actually finished MOST of my home works already! just left a few more to go.

felt the weight just flew off my shoulders when I hand it to the teachers!

I feel more organized! I can finally smile without worrying so much of what to do later. =)

yay to that!

today I let my bio teacher pricked my finger as a donation to my experiment! we were suppose to suppose to look through the microscope and VOILA my blood cells!

sad case, I can't see a thing. LOL!

and when the teacher pricked my finger, it hurt so much! it hurts!!!!! OUCH!

but now only I realize that it doesn't hurt as long as my heart will ever do.

my finger hurt for a while then it was okay already, but my heart, it will hurt forevermore!

my friends are leaving for boarding school! I hugged one of them today before I went back. I feel so sad.

I can see her holding back the tears. she wasn't here in our school for long, just last year she moved to our school!

she's moving to this boarding school just a few minutes away from my house, yet it felt so far!

even if it was near my house, I don't think I'm allowed to go in and see her! ='(

and today I saw him! was really trying my best to avoid him but he was THERE, he saw me, I feel so dumb avoiding him.

he did nothing wrong! maybe it is just me! argh! I feel so annoyed! he's everywhere! don't care! don't talk bout him! just be friends!

another sad thing that is about to happen is to eat dinner with my aunt and uncle later in MEXICA, and they are leaving tomorrow! so sad..

they wont be here for, GOD knows how long! *sigh* I'll really miss them! =)

I think this is mostly why I boo-ed myself!

I realize now that I LOVE to boo myself when I cry, sad,angry..etc

don't care la! I don't wana F**king care! just leave it behind me and move on!

okay that's all for today!

PS: Alisson!!!! is tomorrow on? I mean the MOooo-V!! reply me ASAP! ok?

trying hard to move on,

HanNah

my meaning of “I’m fine”

I'm fine la.. Really! I am..! LOL! *I guess u guys figured out that I'm OBVIOUSLY NOT!* I don't really know what is bothering me! =(

Sad! Sad! Depressed! =(

I think it is either because of stress (too much things to do and to finish up) or because of HIM...

a lot of teachers aren't happy teaching our class. ARE WE THAT
bad? ha-ha. I think
if the teachers are good we WOULD really pay attention, but if they are just mumbling their way through periods then why IN A BLUE MOON would I even care about what they say?!?! like of course not right? SHIT HEADS! and now I have to finish a bunch of home works! I know I know.. I am lazy. Didn't finish up THAT time so now got A LOT! lol..but I really HATE teachers giving a bunch of work when I don't F**KING understand!! *sigh* and now there is a test next week! gosh! so FAST! my LORD.. I really have to TRY and finish up my work and start READING! I'm stressing! can u F**KING believe it!? I have never stressed in MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE about studies! argh…. why NOW!!?!??!?!? I dun wana have WHITE HAIR! I'm TOO young to have 'em! WAY TOO YOUNG! maybe I just have to stay calm.. and then..? errr.. *blurr*

so whatever! now let me share with you my ANOTHER stress! ha-ha.. it's about this guy! thanks SERENE for blabbering it out before I did! ha-ha! if I describe him to u.. IT'S A 100% RISK because I am F**KING sure you'll know him! so all I can do now is just to share what I feel bout him! like duhh I have feelings for this dude.. I didn't know, it JUST happened! it just came! I knew him NOT THAT LONG! we chatted! we laughed! we hang out! in some way, I think he IS charming (as in very caring, gentleman type la!!!!). I don't care bout the looks! I know I keep spying on hot dudes but I just admire them doesn't mean I HAVE to date them! i'm not like other humans that only WANTS their appearance! I know It's the first thing I see but being in love for me is within my heart! I have to feel there is a connection! a spark! laugh all u want if u see me dating an ugly dude! but if u look inside his heart, he rules my HEART! haha.. *sigh* but this dude that I'm so called having a crush on is seriously liking other humans! other HOMOSEPIANS that are WAYYYY more PURRRRFECCCCTOOO than yours truly here! so what am I compared to her?!?!? =( so I'm now hanging on the wall between continue crushing on him and confess or just close an eye and think that I've never liked him! he has some bad habits that are being RUDE when he is angry! but I think 97.25% of the HOMOSEPIANS on this planet does that too right! haha.. I'm the lucky 2.75% that doesn't! hahaha.. and I guess that is one of the bad habits he has! I'm not sure what other bad habits he has.. that's why! I don't even know him YET! argh.. never mind! I can be his friend for now and maybe, one lucky day, he'll confess? haha.. can't wait for that one lucky day! =)

okay okay! I got to go! HOMEWORK awaits their MASTER! muahahahahahaha~ ciao my beloveds.. =D

Monday, February 2, 2009

my 'lukisan'


correct! single rocks my socks! =D



it says here.. 'JULIET was never in ROMEO's heart'

mummy and clement! i think i have my mum's genes! which is LOVING BABIES!

me and daren! awww.. he's adorable!

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i play ONLINE POKER! haha~


the blue hat is ME! i won! wee hee~ if you wana play its called 'governor of poker'.. nice game!
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ROMEO and JULIET

how I wish they will produce a newer version of romeo and Juliet the movie! I want to watch! I don't know where to find a ROMEO AND JULIET the movie! or even its novel! I want to watch the movie! I want to understand it! I hear it is very interesting but sad.. all I know is that romeo and Juliet died in the end.. lol! that's sad, huh?

I'm TRYING to write an essay now titled "my childhood days"! I don't have any ideas.. I can't think of anything! and tomorrow school is starting already! gosh.. that's fast! =( how I wish time slows down now! and hope that God will give me the BRAINS to finish my work..

gtg before time ends! =) toodles!

Sunday, February 1, 2009

CNY open house in my place?

happy CNY everyone! sorry for the late wish!

=) I didn't ask any of my friends to come over so dun worry.. u were not left out! my sisters did.. so I just JOINED! haha..

most of the time is me sitting in the corner looking at everyone.. I wasn't actually suppose to be in the crowd! I hate CROWDS in my house! so NOISY! so I slept and later just poked a nose and check out the FUN! all gamblers! haha.. as usual! many COUPLES! except me! SINGLICIOUS babe here! haha.. =) so practically I had a very OK day..

PS: sorry no pics.. =) bb~