some weird outing.

IT WAS A VERY WEIRD OUTING!

first it was in the dark!!

then it was COLD!

and it was at 9pm! what?!

HAHA..

Let me show you who went.

ME (of course!), Hazel, Rachel, Min Li, Jing Ying, Bevan and Douglas!

hmm~ it was really funny and COLD!

we went there and laid out the mat and everything else plus me! HAHA!! oooo I remember!! I had an ass cramp that’s why I laid down on the mat! HAHA..

so we sat there for a while.. not sure why, but we were there on the mat for quite some time.

suddenly we all got up and we played with the sparkle. it seems that the game was suppose to be like, once your sparkle has got sparks you got to run around that HUGE cloth that was in the middle of the field, I think its used for those footy team? it was really a big round. it’s a square cloth or carpet? and when you reach a corner you got to touch the ground and then jump a star jump? HAHA.. so freaking tired!! you got to finish that run before your sparkle finishes sparkling!

its really fun! but it was cold! HAHA..

after that we just took pictures! want to see them?

haha~ it was a really fun time! Douglas didn’t actually took pictures I think.

so after cam-whoring, we just sat down/ laid down on the mat and talked until it was 10 something? then they wanted Maccas? so we head back to my place and then they went for Maccas.

weird but nice.

we should have a barbeque some time soon!

Love, Hannah

PS: I love my lougong! beary beary much!

some life I’m in.

why do I say that? I don’t know. but all I know is that there are many kinds of people in this world living totally different lives than me.

I have a roof and a warm bed and food to look forward to. but all I do is complain. awesome? *sigh*

I just talked to a guy. Man his life seems really adventurous. but with no family love. I thought he was really happy and he had everything. He has so many cameras that I am dreaming of getting and he cooks beautifully. I thought he was just another great guy but when he talked to me a little bit more about him deep down under his skin, his background, I wouldn’t actually want to have that kind of life. I felt the pain.

His parents are divorced. that’s sad enough. I don’t know what to do if mine were to be separated or even when they fight I would actually just feel so sad. *sigh* parents love is really important for that security and that feeling of protection. like my spine, without it.. hmm~

not only that, his father kicked him out from home and he is forced to support himself. and that was like when he was only 14 or around that age. when he said that he had to live by himself when he was 14 I thought wow, freedom! but then again, no financial support at all. gosh. I feel like what kind of people would do that to your own kids? if I were to be him, I would just sleep on the streets and die of cold and hunger. but he stood up and found himself a place to live in and a job to earn his own money. all those experience and pain made him who he is now and truthfully speaking I do look up to him. such bravery and courage. he worked as a chef, photographer and wow.. I just can’t imagine the pain of doing it when you’re that young. when I was 14, I was naïve, I was really stupid and just really stubborn. can’t imagine my next step if I were to be in his position.

He told me that its not fun at all, of course, being free from his parents. he said that he looked up to many wrong people and di many wrong things because he has no good example to follow (you know usually you look at your parents as examples?) *sigh*

I just can’t imagine the pain and cluelessness he went through. I thought it would be fun living without your parents but then again when you’re not in that position you just don’t get it and will never ever will.

I thank God for what He gave me. And through my friend I can see that God has been really good to me. But again, why are there so many people out there suffering? I just feel so sad thinking about people being raped now or having lost a family member or a loved one. At this moment, this very moment someone is in pain, crying and thinking why has things happened the way it did in their lives. and I sit here in front of a laptop that I demanded from my parents and still complain about life.

now I just want to know how I can help those people that are in pain. how can I make them feel happy? why does things happen the way it does? *sigh* The answer can only be God. I figured that out yesterday, the answer to all questions would be and is God. and I thank Him and appreciate His grace and mercy not only towards me but to my loved ones as well.

From now on, I' have to reach out to anybody that I see with tears or that looks sad. and that I would stop complaining. Just remember when you complain, there are people out there that are in a more bitter position.

Love, Hannah

Never say Never.

Hey you guys! I would not talk bout the title now. Let me just tell you what I did today kay? If you’re not interested, see that read button straight up on your right corner and click it.

Last night I slept ‘VERY EARLY’. haha~ I slept at 4 am! :P anyway I was suppose to wake up around 11 at least to clean up and eat breakfast before going to Victoria Market with Aaron. Look at the pic..

Had to prepare dinner with Aaron for cell group tonight. YUM! so sorry no pictures of what I cooked.

We cooked Curry chicken (and seriously it was just curry and chicken. nothing else! haha~), rice (last minute suggestion because the GUYS were RICE-ADDICTS), my awesome cheese baked cauliflower and broccolis and mashed potatoes. not bad! haha~

after Vic Market, Aaron wanted to get curry powder so we went to QV and met up with Joshua.

It was really heavy carrying those stuff every where! AHH.. no more taking-care-of-image! must bring the trolley!

During cell it was really a nice sized group. Not too big and not too small. just OKAY. We shared and talked about many questions and I concluded to myself that whatever questions we have in our hearts the answer is always God. with Him, everything just seems to go right.

after discussions and prayers, we ate and then we just played and talked. It was really fun. TIM IS SO MEAN. haha! Jokes. Inside-joke.

played Saboteur and CHO DAI DI (omg, David keeps winning! wtc!) then we watched a little bit of Iron Chef. That’s when I found out that Douglas was a chef or maybe still is. WOW right?

Nic’s place is REALLY CLEAN. ahh! must have that sort of tidiness in my place.

While JaJa, Nic and Aaron were in their G-O-C, Joshua baked fondant. REALLY NICE. though it didn’t actually have that perfect POSTURE. haha~ but the taste is there so.. who cares right? wow.. seldom see guys so passionate in things that are not just games.

SO.. are you curious why I said never say never. I ALWAYS SAY NEVER..

you know my rules towards my perfect guy? if you know me well enough its pretty obvious.

• I would want a guy that has that perfect height. Tall enough for me to tip toe when I kiss him.
• A guy that is really sweet and protective and caring.
• wise
• tidy
• cooks
• loving
• funny / good sense of humor
• strong enough to carry me off the aisle when we get married. it has always been my dream to have a guy giving me piggy back rides.

I just feel that what if when I keep saying I wouldn’t want to go out with a guy that is shorter than me or not strong enough or too thin that God would actually give me a guy like that.

Hazel keeps telling me that I should never say never because it would actually come true. *sigh*

I don’t know. I just feel so confused now. I don’t want to be confused! I’m happy with what I have now and I don’t want to change that!

I hate changing into something I am not.

anyway, I don’t want to think about that. all I know is that I will forever have God with me and that’s just enough for me. all I need to do is focus onto him.

Love, Hannah

Worship.

what is worship? Do u think its an easy question? Think again.

People tend to think worship is to praise God by singing, by speaking and by dancing. Its true but you’re lacking one of listening. Listen to what He is telling us. And to also spread His glory.

Worship comes from two English words : Woerth which means worth and ship means quality for eg: sportsmanship or leadership by having the quality in sports or in leading.

So to worship God is to say that God is worth and He is worthy.

Back to what I was saying, YES, you must listen to what He has to say and obey His instructions. Ready to serve and ready to take action.

oooooo~ I was chatting with Joshua on skype and he said he wanted to get a Ramekin. haha~ so I thought of crème brûlée! YES. I must make one! WAHAHA~ woo.. I’m becoming a chef.

And when I thought of chef, Alya came into my mind. miss you babe!! and I thought of your AWESOME kek batik! I’m SOOOO gonna make that one day and take pics of it and post it on your wall. HAHA trust me, I can make it work!

Love, Hannah

PS: so hungry.

PPS: ask me out already or something! argh!