it happened way TOO fast..

everyone said it was fate that he passed away.. and I really think we all had the "something" in us telling us that he was leaving soon.. but most of us kept it quiet.. he was a man that is strict and always want the best for his children and family.. he loved us all so dearly deep down in his heart and I know that! he never stop himself from putting that smile of his on his face to make us not worry about him so much.. I really love him.. and I know that all of us loved him too! he was a caring father, a loving husband and most of all a very joyful grandfather! he is my GRAND-DAD.. (mum's side)

we didn't plan of coming back to PJ after our trip to Malacca. but my dad has a meeting in PJ so we decided to spend a night in our grandies home. and we didn't know it was our last time seeing him walking around and asking us how are we. we sat down and ate and laughed but we didn't really spent much time with him. mum asked us to sleep early since the next morning we have to go back to Kuantan in the morning. hazel told me that before she slept HE called her and asked us what time we were leaving the next morning (like he usually do) but this time, after he asked and found out the answer, he turned to the corner of the bed and didn't utter a sound. so we slept as planned but non of us felt comfortable enough to sleep properly. the next morning my dad woke us up and told us we were not going back to Kuantan and asked us to pay our last respects and prayers to Him and said "he has passed away". we were shocked (like of course) and went down to see him. he was on his bed, looked pale and we started crying. I knew this was going to happen as I prayed the night before to ask GOD to take care of him and when it's time for him to leave we would not cry but instead smile and wave bye bye. but I didn't really see it coming so soon and I burst into tears and wouldn't stop. I was so sad and felt lonely. I was usually so proud of myself having all 2 sets of grandies but now..? I feel so lonely and I felt even worse seeing my grand-ma and mum crying after being so tough in front of us.

maybe it really is his time to go and he did go in a way where all of us were with him. now he maybe up in the clouds with God looking over us and guiding us through our life.

 

a silent prayer to him:

    Gong-Gong (that's what I call him), I'm so sorry I cried when I said I wouldn't. I'm so sorry that I didn't spend enough time with you. I knew it was happening but I denied it and now.. I'm crying again, sorry. I know u don't like us crying and u wanted us all to be happy but I promise u that I will look after po-po and mummy for u. but Gong-Gong please look at us at times to see if we are behaving well, okay? and do look after yourself up there! I love you and will always do! finally, I can now say.. BYE-BYE my dearest Gong-Gong..!

Amen.

my holiday (2008) part I

this year my parents aare going to attend a survey course in Jordan and we had to have our holiday cut short and also fun!

that means here in MALAYSIA!! we are going to Port Dickson and Malacca. *cool*? *shrugs*

the journey starts….

(Saturday, 15^th of November)

I woke up early in the morning because of my mum. she wants to find her memory stick and she HAD to ask me when I'm up high in cloud9!! so since I woke up already I'd better start packing.. (last minute) and then we rushed up into our LIMO (car) and off for breakfast. I had 'roti telur banjir' which means an Indian dish made from flour and added egg and some curry. kind of full so we did our business in the toilet because my dad didn't want us to stop during our journey. and we were soon off to our destiny(K.L.)! slept through out the journey.. I guess I was just too tired.. dad and sis yapping all about future things (I'm way too young to hear those stuff..) and we reached K.L. but it seems to be very wet!! (raining of course)

we were too tired to shop or do anything else so we rested in my grandma's house while my dad and my brother went for golf. I played with hazel some wooden blocks challenge thingy.. and later had some fun with the kids (young cousins).. they are LOUD but cute in a way which means they speak really funnily. (lets cut it short) we ate dinner, chat, watched a dumbandwastingmybloodytimewatching
movie and chat then watched a football game and another movie.. LOL! I slept at 3++! GOSH!! wat a day.. gotta ciao.. nitez!

PS: my journey (holiday) doesn't end here!!!!!

my new hairDO!!

yesh!! that NEW me has arrived!! finally?
lol..
i copied V.B.'s hairdo!! love it..
one part of my hair is long and the other is LONG!!
funny?
=P
PS: off to PD and malacca!! HANNAH's arriving!! wait for me!!!!!
~love~

THIS IS ME! ME!! MYSELF AND I!!!

MY LIFE MY STORY IS ALL ABOUT ME!

WHY THE HELL WUD I GIVE A DAMN ABOUT WHAT U THINK?!?

WHO THE **** ARE YOU TO ME IN MY LIFE!??

ASK YOURSELF! IF MY LIFE REVOLVES SO MUCH ON YOU THEN WUD I CALL IT MY LIFE?!

BLOODY ASS! *NO OFFENCE TO INNOCENT HUMANS* BUT TO U THERE IS MUCH MORE COMING YOUR WAY!

HOW DO U SLEEP AT NIGHT COMPLAINING ABOUT EVERY SINGLE THING I DO?!

DO U EVEN OWN A MIRROR AT HOME U ASS?!

IF U ARE SO PERFECT THEN WHY DON'T I SEE YOU ON TV EVERY NOW AND THEN?!

IDIOT!!!! *CHILLS…*

Lets forget that.. xD

Its just a comment to an ass that is always criticizing people!

Now.. I have gotten myself a nice hair cut(sorry I cant be patient enough to leave it long).. sadly I can't post my pictures yet but it will be out soon! =P

I have made a vowel to myself today!

Guess what? I said I dun wana let anything or ANYONE interfere my life.. and no matter what I do I have to lift my head up HIGH and smile gracefully.. seem easy? Not really! Because my heart is full of problems and how do u expect me to do that? Ahh.. that is a challenge to me! I wana fast fast graduate from this boring school of mine and go take the course of being an air hostess! That is my one and only goal now! I have to achieve it! If not, my life wud be just a piece of junk! So.. as my friends and family out there! U MUST
support me ya?! Muakx!!!!!

~LOVE~

LIFE!!

Hallo my dear readers! (woo.. its like I'm the author of Readers Digest.. ^^)

Have u ever notice.? When u sit in the car and look out at other cars and see what other drivers are doing?

LOL?! True.. I was at a traffic jam today in the car with my mum.. not much of traffic jam here in Kuantan but it was rainy.. then I started laughing.. u wana know why? Its because there are so many different types of people doing different kinds of stuff.. I know la that everyone does different stuffs but if u notice it properly it is really funny! No kidding.. I saw this woman in a 'kancil' shouting on the phone like a mad woman going wild! *laughs* then a Mercedes dude picking his nose like there is no one around! *crazy* I mean a Mercedes with a nose picking man! Isn't it weird? I think its hilarious!!!

Man.. this world is some world!! *confuse*

Toodles!

Xoxo..

Tagged.. (lazy la……)

THE SELF
[01] Real name: Hannah Leong Wai San
[02] Nickname: Hanz, Hannah Montana, Hanzy…
[03] Married: so false!!
[04] Zodiac Sign: LEO~ *roar*
[05] Gender: I'm a girl la… =P
[06] Age: 51! Lol.. 15 la..
[07] High school: Monkey Girl Secondary School…
[08] College: not thinking of going to college this early of my age
[09] Height: 176cm if I'm not mistaken.. (how I wish I could be taller.. ='( )
[10] Weight: 55++kg
[11] Do you like yourself: at some points, yea I do LOVE myself..
[12] Piercings: on my left ear pinna and my right ear pinna! Haha..
[13] Right or left: I just said left AND right! Swt!!!!!
[14] Are you a freak: hmmm~ at times to make humans happy, I could be a freak.. haha
[15] Hair: average.. normal.. NOT OILY and ANTI-DANDruff….
[16] Skin: natural tanned
[17] Allergic: maybe prawns and some seafoods..
[18] What are you doing now: doing this tag stuff and watching Obama's chronology..
[19] What will you do 1 hour later: eat??
[20] What will you do 10 years later: on the bed with my HOT husband?? LOL!!

THE FAMILY
[21] Live with : muh parents, two sisters, muh bro, 4 dogs, 9 hamsters, 3 ponds of fish ..
[22] Siblings(included you): 4
[23] Eldest: her name is HAZEL!!
[24] Youngest: HILDA! (FYI.. she's a pain!!)

[25] Love/hate your family: I love all of them! =P but at some time I do hate HILDA!!! Hmph!!!

THE LOVE
[26] You found your another half: I don't consider my partner to be a half of mine.. I hope we would be a full!
[27] If yes, who is he/she: I dun plan to have one yet!! Maybe in the next 5-10 years?
[28] If no, who you want he/she to be: I want HIM to be a sweetheart.. HOT!!! And loves me cos I'm me..
[29] Time(s) you in relationship: most of the time I don't exceed 5 weeks!! LOL!!!
[30] Ever woo boy/girl(0-100000): nope! They woo me! Hahahaha…

[31] Anyone woo you before(0-10000): all the time!! Lol..
[32] Did anything wrong to your other half: not really.. probably everything I do wud be wrong to him? Who knows?
[33] What was/were the wrong you had done: please.. it could be a long long long list!
[34] Ever argue with your other half: dunno.. *zips my mouth*
[35] You with your other half since: … hate questions like this…
[36] Reasons you love your other half: instincts?


[38] You woo he/she or he/she woo you: told ya.. they woo me.. LOL!! Kidding..
[39] Ever think of marry he/she: not now.. or maybe ever!
[40] Your first best friend: Risa Morita! She's lovable..
[41] Your first enemy: my sister!! HILDA!!!!
[42] The friend you love the most(1 only): SERENE???
[43] The enemy you hate the most(1 only): L******
[44] Your most beautiful girl friend: am I counted my own friend? (haha.. just kidding)
[45] Your most handsome boy friend: hmmmmm~ dunno.. all of them are handsome..
[46] The kind of girl you hate the most: when they have the attitude!!!
[47] The kind of boy you hate the most: the ones that keep woo-ing girls…
[48] You fall in love with your close friend before: dunno.. maybe?
[49] Your best friend is your ex-lover: nope.. =P
[50] If your friend backstabbing you: I'd kill her!! No la.. I'll just mark her the worst BITCH on earth!!
[51] If your friend betray you: no difference with the previous question..
[52] If your friend woo your lover: she'd die in my hands!!! Muahahahaha^^

[53] If your friend fall in love with you: smack HIS/HER face! =P

[54] If you fall in love with your best friend: that would probably not happen?
[55] Are you a good student: the "best" in the teachers list!!!
[56] You always done your homeworks/assignments:
hmmm~ depends on the subject.. xD
[57] The teacher/tutor you love the most: CIK NORHARTI!!! She's just wonderful! Lovely!
[58] Always late to school/college: how I wish I could be late but sad I'm living with a punctual ASS.. xD
[59] You love your seniors: not really..
[60] Seniors who you love the most: hmmmm~ I can't think of any of them.. pity..
[61] Your classmates good/bad: LAME must be the word.. =P
[62] Excellent result classmate: T.INTAN!! she's awesome.. sad she'll be going to a boarding school next year.. sobs!
[63] Laziest classmate: ME?! =P
[64] Smart people: ask the NERDS!
[65] Stupid people: ask the bitchess!
[66] Good looking people: ME?!
[67] Ugly people: hmmm~ aiyah.. dun wana be that evil to put their names here la.. haha..

[68] Funny people: BAHIYAH
[69] Cute people: ALYA!
[70] Bad people: L******
[71] Honest people: LINDA!!
72] Acting people: L******
73] You are what kind of people: haha.. not going to answer this because some ppl might kill me! lOl

THE PREFER
[74] Lip or eyes: LIP
[75] Hugs or kisses: hugs..
[76] Shorter or taller: taller!
[77] Hesitant or spontaneous: Spontaneous!
[78] Nice stomach or nice arms: I want abs!!!
[79] Listener or Talker: I am usually a talker but I do listen at times!!
[80] Romantic or rich: romantically RICH!! Haha..
[81] Good husband or good father: BOTH la!!!!!
[82] Age to get marry: *thinks* I DUN WANA GET MARRIED!!!!!!
[83] Numbers of kid(s): as many as possible!!
[84] Career: an air-stewardess.. =P ( I love travelling marh)

[85] Salary: 20%-eat, 10%-bills, 50%-save, 20%-waste!!
[86] Retirement age: as fast as possible!!
[87] Properties value: the higher its value, the happier I'll be! =P (kidding la..)
[88] Wishes: everyone to be happy n healthy through out their lives..

class party!!

what a day..
a day full of sadness and anger..
i just don't feel right some how..
everyone around me seem to have their own world while i feel like a nomad..
i broke up with him..
it may seem to be the worst thing that happened to me but i feel its the right choice..
there are even more blockage coming my way in the future (that is if i live any longer)..
now.. all i wana do is to study hard and achieve my goals in life!
i dun wana have a relationship because it will distract me and i will always be hanging on cloud 9 thinking of that someone than to do the things that I SHOULD DO!!
(hope that answers ur questions)
and i just get this feeling that i dun wana trust any guy in this world..
no matter how close i am to a guy there will always be a (at least) 1% gap between us..
i dunno..
i feel safe thinking like dat..
haha..
this is me..
=P

ok! wait.. i'm totally out of the topic right now..
LOL!
my class party was kinda boring at first but i didnt know it will turn out to be a wet market!
its so noisy and loud..
people eating non stop..
some are even dancing!
haha!
the fun part was when i went in the first class and join them to play games..
damn it was fun!
i learnt a lesson from my friend while she was playing a game..
do u know the folding paper game?
the one where u have to stand on a piece of paper with a partner..
the smaller the paper is the harder it is to balance..
haha..
pity me..
i was sent of on the 3rd round.. *sobs*
(i'm under weight so u can't blame me.. =P)
the lesson i learnt was "when there's a will there's always a way!"
my friend, L, she was very determined to win.. not because of the prize but i think its because she dun wana give up..
she was shouting at her friend to get on her back n stay put.. the paper was so SMALL!! damn i would give up if i were her (haha.. that's me) she was sweating and she look so tiresome but she still didnt wana give up! i was so touch that i sat put and keep telling her to do her best!
i wanted to cry!
she really made me look up to her!
L i really look up to u!
muakx!!!!

sorry i dont have pictures for u but i think u have the imaginations right?
=)

love with him

how to start this post? hmmm~
i got it!
*sigh* ( i guess that is how i'm going to start it.. =P)
i love him.. i love him not.. i love him.. i love him NOT..
at certain part of him i love him but at certain part of him i love him NOT!
damn my life is so confusing right now..

gimme a sec to think..
i love him because...
he's hot..
he's sweet..
he's caring..
he's loving..
he's funny..
he's tall!
he's a basketball player..
he's cool..
he's my boyfriend!

i love him NOT because..
he's J's EX!!
he's not my type where i can spill my heart too..
he speaks chinese!
he is BROKE!!
i love single life!!!

MAJORITY says i love him.. but i just don't feel a part where other friend's of mine can connect to their boyfriend which i can't to him! hmmm~ i love single life but i love our sweet talks and the imagination of him huggin me or holding my hand!! wooooo~ this life of mine.. its almost like a roller coaster!! YUCK!! i hate roller coasters!! eekksss...
love him or love him not?! decisions!!!!!!!!

America decides OBAMA wins!! Muakx..

Woohoo.. just got the news that Obama won! Wow… what a news for me.. (gotta SNATCH my $5 from a bet.. $$$$) wahahahaha… he won.. lets all rejoice! (dun wonder why I'm doing it.. cos to tell u a secret I love USA!!) hmmmm~ I think he'll do a GREAT job in the future for USA.. he has his lil daughter beside him to cheer and advice him.. what a lucky brat! Lol… even though he is the first black to be in the white house I think he'll really be the best president of USA!! I believe that he would lead AMERICA to a bright future!! Heart u dude!! And for clinton and McCain.. don't worry, he'll do a better job than u.. muahahaha!!

random pictures from my tripp to JAIL.. LMAO

tagged by cassie n alisson n tons more who wants to tag me!

1st. Answer the questions below, do a Google Image search with your answer, take a picture from the first page of results, and do it with minimal words of explanation.
2nd. Tag 5 other people to do the same once you've finished answering every question.

1) The age you'll be on your next birthday.





















my SWEET 16!! xD

2) A place you'd like to travel to.














alAska baby!!

3) Your favorite place.






















HOME is my fav place.. like of course!!!

4) Your favorite food






















imma strawberry babe!

6) Your favorite piece of clothing.



















braS.. =P

7) The town in which you live in.

















kuAntan~~~

8) Your screen name/nickname




















turn it the other way around n u'd find.. HANNAH montana!! =P

9) A bad habit you have.





























falling in <3


10) Your worse fear



















being hungry! *tummy grumbles*

11) The one thing you'd like to do before you die.



















read books like a NERD!! muahhaha^^


12) Your hobbies.

























keep fit.. woohoo.. sexy moi!!

13) Something you wanted to try but you're not able to do it right now.

















live in PEACE!! lmao..




TAGS:
-HAZEL
-SERENE
-YAN WEN
-MATHILDA
-....?