Choir comp. 2008

hey!
do u wana know something?
i know my school won the Kuantan Choir Comp. but so wat?
we won it fairly... if u wana know~
but we didnt expect much tho..
we just did our best.. and the results are already wat they are!
i just dun get it?
if u so wana WIN go ahead.. take our trophy.. we dun mind nyways..
we just want peace..
we really didnt expect much!
we really think SABS and AA was cool.. and we even thought we didnt get top 3..
it was really a shocking news...
but i really dun get it?
why? why is there so MUCH CHAOS going on around?
*sigh*
i dun like saying this..
BUT..
i'm gonna say it nyways!
u AA's just please! please stop being so naive!
just accept wat is REALITY!
I really am sick of hearing news bout u saying u are the best and bla bla bla..
oh c'mon! a judge is a judge! dun tell me that they gave him that job just to simply choose the winner!
it must be a hard decision for him to pick..
but if we are the one he pick why not accept it?
*sigh*
i really looked up to u AA's before this..
u guys are really great in what ever u are great in..
and i even think that u were great!
but after this incident i really think that u guys are just some SOAR LOSERS!
haven't u guys hear wat is the meaning of WINNING IS NOT EVERYTHING?
i know u guys think that u are ALWAYS winners at heart..
so why give a damn?
and why make noises?
since u have already said u are winners forever!
name isn't anything and everything ,so why give a DAMN???
i really am SO disappointed that i was BLIND!
i thought u guys are matured and smart enough to know wat is wat..
but sad i was wrong!
and damn i was..
gosh!
u guys are so ANNOYINGLY ANNOYING!
and if u are scolding SABS!
what is wrong with you!
can't u just accept the fact that u got wat u got!
and just because u guys have guys and gals..(mixture of voices)
dun forget NOTHING IS IMPOSSIBLE!
and hell yeah nothing is IMPOSSIBLE for us..
and at heart i think that SABS shud get no.1 not U..
u wana know why?
because u guys are so ARROGANT and OBSESSED!
i can't believe it!
u guys can actually do wat u guys want to keep things out of ur way huh?
that is just PLAIN SOAR LOSERS..
get it?
L-O-S-E-R-S!!!!!!
*sigh*
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SABS..
i love u guys!
u guys are the greatest!
i really think u guys are the greatest..
at heart u are my true no.1!
=)
muahx..
and MGSS i LOVE U loads!!!!!!!!
muahx muahx muahx...

I have a new date!!

harlow!!!
guesssss...
who is my new date??
AHEM!!!
its HANNAH's NEW date..
don't tell me you don't know??
ok lemme give u a tip..
its starts with a B..
hahaha~
nahhhh..
its not him..
aiyo..
don't tell me you really don't know!
c'mon..
its not that you have to crack your head just to get the answer..
i guess everyone loves my date!
ok fine!
its..
MY.....
BED...
haha~
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isn't having your bed as a date the best of the best??
i love every second of my time with my BED..
its so relaxing..
and every time i jump on it..
i feel like i'm on a cloud!
a very big and comfy one...!
that feeling is just indescribable!
haha~
and sad...
i had never realize this like so long!
i have been with this bed since i moved into this house!
and that was like more than 8 years ago???
aihhh..
how sad..
but never mind!
at least i realized it now..
=P
and one more thing..
this bed of mine gives me free tickets to dreamland every night!
and there's one thing really nice about dreamland which is..
there is no reality and pain and sufferings!
isn't it true?
=)
that's why i just love my DATE..
haha..
ok..
its time for my date..
g2g..
bye~~

i'm gonna suffer!!!

*sobs*

tears are rolling!

why!?

why is it so hard to live a simple life?

a very simple one that i wun suffer?

but it seems to be so hard!~

i dunno why..

never one second i feel happy bout my life~!

that's true...

no matter if its my birthday or my crush smiled at me or wat..

i will still be unpleased with my own life!!!

u wana know why?!

its because of me!

wat is wrong with me!?

one second i can be real close with my friends and the other i will be betrayed!

and sometimes i don't even know what i did wrong!

my parents...

sigh...

dun even need to say!

they are always unplease with me!

my results aren't what they expected!

my attitude?!?!?!?!

my behavior?!??!?!

i just don't know what to do to fix all of this!

i always turn to God..

but i always hear (silence)...

is that the answer to all my questions OH LORD?!?!

i just don't get why i'm such a BIG BABY!!

every single tension or pressure..

the tears will start rolling!

somtimes i don't even know why i will cry!!!

LIFE for me..

is just a blank piece of paper being wasted..

is just a tunnel, always in the dark and always lonely!

is just a cup of coffee lost without sugar...!

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i wana know why is my life so suffering while others enjoy theirs!?!??!

sigh~

and at the end of the day..

my questions will still remain by just being questions and not answered!!!

=(

hurts a little more deeper..

*sobs*
i just got scoldings from my dad!
he was really annoyed by me!
and he was really protecting my lil sis!
OMG!
it was her wrong!
why do they always spoil her with LOVE and GIFTS!?
while me and my elder sis just gets d opposite..?
me and my elder sis (hazel) totally suffers!
when we were at my younger sis's age!
we were so obedient like 2 lil angels!
but why?!?!?
WHY!?!?!?
why when my younger sis does something wrong they wud just scold her a bit..
but then give her the sweet comfort..
its like she's the QUEEN of the house!
u know wat?
my younger sis scolded my mum when my mum was just telling her wat she did wrong..
then i hear my sis saying "dun u dare scold me!"
she scolded my mum so harshly!
if only my dad heard that!
but probably even if he did..
he wouldn't care much will he?
so i scolded my sis!
i keep saying she was a rude BITCH, SLUT, WHORE and etc...
and i oso added that if i ever had a daughter like her, i shud actually be dead a few years ago..
or i wud have killed her the first minute she was born!
wat a humiliation to have a sis like her!
so rude!
argh~
i just dun like it!
i love her, but at times she really get me on my boiling point!
aihs..
why dun they see?
they have already successfully spoil her!
aihs~
i dun wana hurt her!
but she has to know her limits!
i dun mind getting a whack from anybody.. as long as she wud change to be a better person..
=)
ok now..
i'll put back a smile on my face..

that's all..
so long~
love
-strawberry emo-

Fitting In-life is like a puzzle, n u r 1 of the pieces. How's ur fit?

Have you ever been working on a puzzle when you came across a piece that u just couldn't fit in? you turned it and pushed it, but it still wouldn't go?

Sometimes that happens in life. Some people want to fit into one certain place so badly that they will do almost anything to make it work. They twist, they turn and sometimes even push their way through to fit.

But in the end it just doesn't feel right-like a puzzle piece squeezed into a place it wasn't suppose to fit. That's because they changed themselves to fit in, and perhaps they were also trying to squeeze into the wrong place.

i feel like that too..but I'm totally over it!
wana know my secret?
first things first..

• just be yourself.. dun hide that person in you! bring it out... dun be shy.. people would really want to know that beautiful personality of yours...
• finding your place..start by taking a good look at the places in which you're trying to fit.
• finding a new place..test your friends by being yourself, and then seeing how they treat you.
  
• take off the mask! It doesn't matter what you have done, what you are struggling with or what family you come from. It doesn't matter if you feel different from every other person around you.
  

so i guess that is all i can give..
it takes time to change so be patient..
okay?
best of luck?

love,
Strawberry lover!

is he my mr.Right??

yo watsup?
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ok lets just cut to the chase ya??
I have this feeling towards this particular guy..
sad~ i can't tell u his name..
=P
he is very tall!
i heard he plays basketball (me love!! cos i love to play basketball too!)
n he is very HOT!
haha~
every time i think of him i'll always feel that heart beat speed!
i can feel me being so warm..
and i can feel my heart smiling!
haha~
exaggerating huh?
but its true wat!
ish~
i know him from this tuition i go to..
he usually sits at the back of me..
and that makes me more...
i just can't find the word for it!
i just love this feeling!!!
really i do!
hahahahahahaha~
i miss this feeling after being in LOVE with one guy..
but sad he's too old for moi!
ok~
lets continue with this hot guy..
hmmm~
i started liking him was when i was waiting for my mum to come and pick me up after tuition one night..
he and I was the last two there..
except for the teacher..
so while i was waiting..
i felt this feeling coming u know?
i kept peeking at him..
then there was when i started liking him!
i dunno where i got that feeling from but it just came!
haha~
i just keep thinking bout him every time after that incident..
i'm addicted!
ish~
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but sad..
i just chatted with one of my buddy, yan wen..
she said she knows him..
but sadly she told me he was a playboy n he probably has a GF!!
OMG
i really was so annoyed!
why did she tell me?!?!?!
aihs..
i just felt my heart sank!
aiyo~
i dun like this ending!!
i want a real happy ending!
*sigh*
but i'm still wondering whether he even knows i'm alive!
does he even cares to know me??
Oh good Lord..
save me!
*gosh*
wats wrong with me?
i dun think he even knows i am living in this world!
++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++++
HANNAH!!!
dun give up!
who knows one day u both can actually be GF and BF??
but~
he is a playboy!!!!!!!
have u ever heard of "time can change everything"??
be patient!!!!
how to?!?!?!?
aiks...
i just wana know whether he is MY MR.RIGHT?!?!?!!
if he's not why shud i bother?
argh!!
dun care!
i dun wana care!
i guess all i can do now is to be friends with him first only expand the relationship..
right??
okok..
i think i know wat i should do now!
hehe...
and that would be off to my bed?
i'm really sleepy now..
so tata~

I'll keep u updated k?
don't worry..
*****BYE*****
nitez..

dun try to know them...it sucks real bad..

hey there...

do u get the title..??

haha..

for girls its guys..

but for guys its gurls..

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yup yup..

i've been observing real closely this few days...

but its too complicated since i'm a girl..

i can't fit my leg in the guys shoes..

it too hard..

but i'll try my best to give advice ya (for the guys)??

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ok..

listen up guys!

this is for u!~

there's 2 kinds of girls in the flirtin world!

there are the cheeky ones and the serious ones..

the cheeky ones are usually SLUTS!

they just love attentions from u guys!

but sadly they wud be leaving u by the dumpster a few days later..

they just want fun fun and like duhh more FUN!!

they wouldn't even care less bout ur feelings..

so just warning ya!

they're easy to catch but not at heart!

the other type of babes are like me!

haha~

not really..

but in their world..

they take love real serious!

dun play a fool here..

they are very hard to catch at heart u know?

once u have their heart just remember dun break it...

why the heck do u want her when finally u wana dump her right??

that's just plain idiot..

unless u like breaking hearts!

then there's 2 word for u from me!

ASS HOLE!!

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so girls..
now i know wat u girls are thinking..
dun try to understand the guys cos their world is like TOTALLY different than ours..
they are so simple..
but us.. uhmmm~ plain complicated..
aihs..
ok here goes..
when u like someone please be brave!
confront him!
not like me!
I always chicken out every single time when i want to at least say hi u know?!?!?!?
*sigh*
its hard..
really..
want an example??
haha~
ok den
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You: Did u talk to Bernard?
She: Yeah, i caught him @ his locker after school. i only had to walk by twice.
You: Did u find out if he's single?
She: Yah-but first i gotta tell u that ?Lena told me this morning that Bernard wasn't very nice to his last girlfriend. He flirted with other girls when they were together.
You: Did u ask if he's seeing anyone?
She: Well, I think he kinda likes Carolyn.
You: Did he say that.
She: Not exactly. I just got that sense.
SHE MEANS: he turned to watch Carolyn walk down the hall with that look on his face.
You: Did u talk bout me?
She: I didn't give any specifics. But you know, I don't think he's your type anyway.
You: I guess not. Not if Carolyn is, that's for sure.
YOU MEAN: My hopes are crushed, but @ least he doesn't know I like him, and besides, he isn't sounding like a prize.
She: There are lots of fish in the sea-and some of them will have brains big enough to recognize how great you are.
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Now for the sake of comparison, here is how the same conversation might flow between 2 guys.

Bernard: Did you ask Rachel if she likes me?
Benjamin: Yah. She doesn't even know you're alive, man. Sorry.
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so now u get it?
hahaha^^
that's true huh??
*wink*

big difference huh?
haha~
there's the only thing i can say is just leave things the way it is!
dun change it cos it'll get even worst~
okay?

gtg~
bye~

-love strawberries-