happy memories together...

hi..
hey..
hello..
aloha..

=p
goodness..
i'm so annoyin..
lol..

hmmmm~
do u know something ??(i guess not if i dun say right?)
hahahaha~
we had a week holiday..
so my BFF came back from Ipoh ( where she's staying currently )
her name is Serene..
her parents let her back is cos they wana see their old fren that also came back from UK..
they are Uncle John and Aunty Betty..
but sadly 2 nights b4 Serene and her family came down to my hometown Uncle John passed away...
i heard the news from one of the aunty in church...
it was a real heart breaking news..
i was so sad once i heard the news and i could see flash back of times that i was with Uncle John..
he was so kind and such a cheerful person..
Serene and i used to swim with him when we were young..
he was a good swimmer and he used to play scrabbles with aunty betty before swimming..
they were so good in scrabbles that they'll take hours on the board!
haha..
they'll never give up would they??
just thinking of them now really makes me wish that God had never take him away from us...
and just to think how lonely aunty betty will be really hurts me a lot!
she wud have no partner to play scrabbles with and no one to say jokes to or even to hear them!
i guess if i were her i would have already be with him now..
i salute to her for being so strong...
i really cant be as strong as her u know?
it really just stabs at my heart whenever i think of him..
how sad i didn't get to see them the very last time!
but i guess it'll be better that way..
cos I'm scared i can't help myself but to just embarrassed myself..
and i guess i really know the meaning of "i'll only start appreciating something or someone after they're gone" now..
but really we had so much memories together...
i guess whenever i go to the swimming pool i'll just think of them sitting at their favorite spot playing scrabbles and chatting happily.. but it wud just be an illusion anyways..
*sigh*
its just sad for losing some one when u are so close to that person..
=(
so after that sad news.. i start appreciating the ones that i love...
i just spend the time i had with serene and yan wen..
they are the closest friends i ever had!
so i wud never want to lose them...
i wud save them in my heart...
so we spend our last day together in church..
we did silly silly things..
haha^^
its so hilarious..
u wana see some pics??
here's some...

we draw silly pictures of ourselves..
this is yan wen's pictures.. lolx huh? she's very blurr case and funny..
her drawings are the ultimate best! love her!!



~this is ME!! fuyoh!
7 is muh hubby's fav no.
so its mine too!









~this is SERENE!! haha! looks weird right??
she just adores $$$$$$$$!! hahaha^^
shopaholic friend.. love her!!!






~now this is the pretty ladies!!
serene is in the LEFT n
yan wen is in the RIGHT..





~i'm taking her that is taking her??
lols!!
=p
what weird friends i have..
lolx..
i admit i am too!!!



here is OUR drawing! haha! if u could see..some of us hate studying except for one.. that is YAN WEN!! she is so nerd-ish.. haha sorry yan wen.. true wat... lolx.....

hmmmm~
here's another pic...


~ this is Jerome.. my silly fren... haha.. he's very funny.. same like yan wen.. he has lots n lots of things common with yan wen u know?? they are so twins!!!
haha~ that lil guy is Jabez.. he's naughty but cute.. their brothers..




they are like a family to me u know??
i still have more pics..
but i scared there wun be any more space..
haha^^
hmmmm~
so that's all for now..
=P
peace!
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love
-silly babe-

a lesson to learn? u wish....................

hemmmmmmm
today is THE election day...
my sis n i was suppose to go to this place and help out...
den i went there n do things i didnt imagine i was gonna do..
i did useless stuffs which i didnt freakin like?!?!
why the heck in the first place i agreed to help out?!?!
wat the!!??

so i just went back home n do nothing!
den i tot of something
i pulled my bro n cousin to cycle with me..
i cycled kinda far from where my parents allows me to..
so i guess i was wrong by breakin rules huh?
but wat the?!?!?
its such a small town!
every friend of mine would usually cycle from one end of my town to the other...
and that is even further from i was..
ish..
their so strict!
i need my independence ASAP!!!!(if they wants me to live)
i wana be a free bird!
i free human!
n a free something!
i dont like the way the stops me from doin something i like!

so okay..
back to the story..
we cycled n cycled..
till i found out that my one of my BIKE's tires are punctured..
so i ask my cousin if there's any nearby patrol station
so he led me to one which is not that far but i guess its a bit far from my house...
(its not more than 3km okay?gosh!)
so we tried to pump it but my cousin assumed that my tire has a hole?!?!?!
but he said its no biggy so i wun make a big fuss out of it..
den we cycled till we changed our bikes??
i dunno why he took my bike?
n i used my bro's one which is damn short ,and come on i have long legs.. u cant expect much!
den my cousin just went off without waiting and i have to adjust myself towards the small bike.
and me n my bro was really pissed off dat my cousin was gone?!?!?!
so we waited n waited and finally decided to find him..
and for sure we cant..
there were roads n roads leading us to more ROADS!!
so we practically went cycling like mad fellows callin his name
so suddenly my phone rang n like DUH its from home!
and my youngest sis said that he was at my house already!
and he told my elder sis n my maid!
(those 2 really cant keep their mouth shut u know?!)
argh*****
i was so ~!@#$%^&*() pissed off..
and hurried home..
like the F1s on the road..
mad cyclers..
haha
when we reached i was so mad!
why did he spill it out?!?!?!
gosh*****
i'm so !@#$ed up!
aihs..
but wat to do..
it had already happened..
i cant wish for the time to turn back right?
(i actually did but wat the !@#$ it didnt work!???)
so i went in the house and guess wat?
THEY (my sis n maid) called my parents and told them eveything!
they spilled the BEANS!
how dumb are they!!!
they are practically useless!!!
argh!
i was so angry!
i was so annoyed!
i was so...
mixed with anger, sadness and most of all GUILT!
*sigh*

my heart was like sinkin in the deepest ocean with guilt!
i could feel so much of weight at my back!
and trust me..
that feeling wasnt a feeling that is to be enjoyed with...
i was so feel with guilt that i decided to go golf with my bro, and cousin n my younger sis..
i hit the balls so hard at the end..
it was like i was trying to hit the guilt as far as i could..
that feeling was so pain and hurting!
but a sigh of relief i smiled!
really..
after 2 hours of not only the feeling of guilt but also the feeling of being so useless cos everyone at the driving range is like hitting good shots but me?!??!!?
errrrrrrr........
LOL

so after golf i went home..
and my dad was asleep ( thank God i still have some time to be alive )
so i took a bath, a warm one..
shaking and shaking like a coward that is going to face trouble...
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
later when my dad is fully awake..
me n my bro walked in the room with a cane...
shaking and praying in heart..
my pulse rate was so high that i could feel my heart beating hard!!!
my father asked us to explain what happened and why did we do that..
we didnt answer the why but we did answer the wat...
my heart was screamin at me askin me to tell him that i want FREEDOM!!!
i wanted to really..
my voice is like coming out..
but my mouth was sealed.
it didnt dare to open cos i guess i was too afraid that he'll blame himself that he's a useless father.. i didnt want him to feel that way so i just shut up..
*sigh*
i got 2 canning's! *youch*
after the canning i felt something...
i feel so happy..
i felt so happy..
i dunno why..
i guess when i hugged him he said that he was worried if wat ever happens to us if we werent careful..
that was really touching..
i felt love..
i think..
but at least he was worried for me..
i didnt think i matter in his heart nor in anyone's heart...
i felt so happy to know that i was at least 1% in his heart...
it really was meaningful..
and it was worth it being canned just to hear those few words..

i guess this is a lesson to learn huh??
it sure is!!!
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but except for the part that i'm being grounded..
haha^^
kk..
i gotta go..

urs truly,
-strawberry emo-

eating problems??

hihi..
wow..
these past few days my hometown has been raining non stop..
*gosh*...
its really hard to cope up with a bad weather..
n i guess i was under the weather too..

my tummy has been rude to me!!!
i have really been loving food these few weeks... (like thats not usually me cos u know my keeping fit thing at bla bla..)
but i guess food is really an enjoyment of life...
same goes to sleeping for me..
haha..
LMAO
but sadly my tummy wasn't feeling well..
it was like i had anorexia or some sort..
i was vomiting even after a few drops of water..
it was getting worse...
i feel like vomiting every time i see food...
that was harsh huh??
it was really painful..
plus the taste of the vomit is so bitter..
ewww...
yuck..
i hate i hate!!!

i guess cos my tummy was under the weather...
but nvm..
i'm fine now...
its just hard to NOT eat..
but cool u know???
3-5 days not eating...
i lost 5 big big KG!!
wow huh??
thanks thanks..,.
but please take my advice...
EAT!!
dun NOT eat..
eating is great...
just watch ur limit that's all...
okay???

xoxo
=love strawberries babe..=
hugs n kisses