Hello Hello :)
I know I have not been posting much and when I looked back at my previous post, it felt so emo-ish and super morbid-like. My sincere apologies.
If you have noticed *hint hint*… Has anything changed? Teehee!
YES! I have modified my blog and even the songs that I had before. If you are reading my blog on mobile, I’m not really sure if the songs would play…(I highly doubt it) So, hop back onto the old fashioned laptops or computers and visit my blog then instead – because the songs are super yummy! If you are anything like me, playful and cheerful, I think the songs would suit you as well!
Anyway, what have I been doing since my last post? Well, I had exams (& by now my results are already out. Please don’t ask me how it went.. Let’s just say I didn’t do too well at it. That’s a fact.) and then holidays! However, now that my holidays are coming to an end, I can well enough say that I did not spend it as productively as I have planned for it to be. *damn it* I did in fact work for 2 weeks and then I fell terribly sick. Some weird virus/bacteria that enjoyed it’s stay in me and not wanting to leave, so there you have it, sick for almost 3 weeks.
On the bright side, I did manage to catch up on rest. Also, met up with my bestie when she came over to Melbourne for her holidays. As well as spending some quality times with a few friends from church. OH! And I have gotten back to gaming – dota2, L4D2 & TF2! *tsk tsk* It is always fun to play a coupla games here and there with friends.
I think the only thing that I am truly regretful of is that I did not spend any/much time with Him during my holidays. I kind of left the book of Psalms hanging for a month or so. In some ways, I am actually turning Him into my genie in the lamp on the shelf, which is not what should happen. T~T sorry.
As I was counting down the number of days I have left to sleep in and be lazy, I was reminded of the grace that He has showed me. Despite the coughs and despite the cold, I am still well alive and living without having to worry about my safety. I am sure all of you would have heard of the many ‘airplane(s)’ news. From MH370 to MH17 to TransAsia to Air Algerie, these are the recent ones and I do pray that they will be the last few of any more aircraft incidents/accidents. When I think about it, there is nothing we can do about the disasters that come our way. No matter how many evidence you prove to show that Russia is at fault or that America is twisting the stories, the fact is that we have been given one life each and this life can be taken back whenever and however that He has planned. I am not saying that He has planned for those victims to die a cruel and innocent death, I am very sure that He won’t want that to happen to anyone. However, we are living in a very cruel and sinful world that people plot for other peoples’ sufferings just so they can satisfy their own sick goals or whatever. Sometimes I do wonder why evil people should even exist on this earth, but after the Fall, this world has clearly became the dwelling place of all wickedness and sin. I am not saying that love and everything good cannot dwell amongst us, I am only saying that you can’t rid all evil here and now. It can only be in heaven that there is no trace of any bad things. We can only pray for protection and pray for our loved ones to be safe. The only lesson that I can take from these terrible news is that life is fragile and I need to know what I should do with this one life that I was given. I can live it as wildly as other people do or I can live a life that has a purpose. A purpose of which I have yet to think of properly. :)
Now, why did I decide to have a change? I guess one thing is for sure is that I was getting bored of my old blog layout and the songs as well. AND that my birthday is coming! I am turning!~ *hee hee* I am not really sure why 21 is such a BIG THING but I guess in this world that we live in, 21 is just set as an age to symbolize adulthood.
So there you have it, me when I was about 1 years old and another picture of me that my sister took last year! Yes, I am very proud of how I look in both of these pictures. But any pictures in between… I think I look a bit…. Terrible and not as pretty as I could be. Oh well, the process of growing up, I guess.
Honestly, I really am super grateful to God of this wonderful life I have had. No complaints and I don’t even have a time of which that I wish to turn back to just so I can change any of it. Undoubtedly I have had many MANY ups and downs, but without any of them, I can assure you that I will not have been the same ‘caterpillar’ as I am typing this post to you now. I am also thankful to my lovely parents that love me unconditionally and always guiding me every step of the way. I know a lot of people out there can’t wait to turn 21 just so they can be released of the ‘chains’ that they have that is tying them to their parents. For me, I don’t mind being tied to my parents until the day I return home. I will always need them in my life. :)
On the other hand, my siblings. *starting to laugh at myself* Yes, I love YOU too! How can I ever not love any of you. No matter what we say to and behind each other, I guess that’s the fun of having 3 other people that is so similar to you (character-wise), we will always have the love for one another. Growing up was NEVER boring and I cannot even begin to imagine when my life actually becomes silent. I remember when I went back to Kuantan (which is my hometown) alone last year, I had to be ‘alone’ without the three of you for a whole month! At first, of course it was fun, but the fun ended in less than a week! Home will never be the same without any of you and same goes to my life. *ugh, so cheesy* As an end note, I just want to say thank you for making my 21 years interesting and never boring.
Now, on to a couple of friends of mine that I cannot help but to mention. Even though we are separated, even though we have not seen each other in a long time, the memories we have created for one another has always been in my heart and it will never leave me. I guess the reason why I can’t seem to find any other closer friends here in Melbourne is because you guys just set the bar too high for any potential friends to even come close to me. I love you :) The bitchings, the tears, the laughters, oh how I miss them! This is why Melbourne will never be my home, because it isn’t the same without any of you here. If only one of you came, I guess there is still hope for Melbourne.
Remember this? We were at ‘Happy Together’ celebrating my birthday! (you know who you are) I wish to just appear at Happy Together again and celebrate with all of you. But I guess dreaming about it is still better than nothing. If I do go back at the end of this year, let’s all celebrate our 21st together once D & C have both turned as well!
And to these two beautiful ladies :) what would I do without having the two of you since young? I am sure that I wouldn’t go to church as often as I did if not because of you! I know we are all super busy with our studies, I just can’t wait till when we actually start working and we can meet each other more often! Exciting times! I know one of you still hasn’t turned, so be excited woman! Love you two loads~
Anyway, I need to stop blabbering now. Will post more soon! For the time being, do enjoy the songs and I hope my this post wasn’t toooooo long!
Love love love,
Hannah L.
