dun try to know them...it sucks real bad..

hey there...

do u get the title..??

haha..

for girls its guys..

but for guys its gurls..

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yup yup..

i've been observing real closely this few days...

but its too complicated since i'm a girl..

i can't fit my leg in the guys shoes..

it too hard..

but i'll try my best to give advice ya (for the guys)??

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ok..

listen up guys!

this is for u!~

there's 2 kinds of girls in the flirtin world!

there are the cheeky ones and the serious ones..

the cheeky ones are usually SLUTS!

they just love attentions from u guys!

but sadly they wud be leaving u by the dumpster a few days later..

they just want fun fun and like duhh more FUN!!

they wouldn't even care less bout ur feelings..

so just warning ya!

they're easy to catch but not at heart!

the other type of babes are like me!

haha~

not really..

but in their world..

they take love real serious!

dun play a fool here..

they are very hard to catch at heart u know?

once u have their heart just remember dun break it...

why the heck do u want her when finally u wana dump her right??

that's just plain idiot..

unless u like breaking hearts!

then there's 2 word for u from me!

ASS HOLE!!

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so girls..
now i know wat u girls are thinking..
dun try to understand the guys cos their world is like TOTALLY different than ours..
they are so simple..
but us.. uhmmm~ plain complicated..
aihs..
ok here goes..
when u like someone please be brave!
confront him!
not like me!
I always chicken out every single time when i want to at least say hi u know?!?!?!?
*sigh*
its hard..
really..
want an example??
haha~
ok den
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You: Did u talk to Bernard?
She: Yeah, i caught him @ his locker after school. i only had to walk by twice.
You: Did u find out if he's single?
She: Yah-but first i gotta tell u that ?Lena told me this morning that Bernard wasn't very nice to his last girlfriend. He flirted with other girls when they were together.
You: Did u ask if he's seeing anyone?
She: Well, I think he kinda likes Carolyn.
You: Did he say that.
She: Not exactly. I just got that sense.
SHE MEANS: he turned to watch Carolyn walk down the hall with that look on his face.
You: Did u talk bout me?
She: I didn't give any specifics. But you know, I don't think he's your type anyway.
You: I guess not. Not if Carolyn is, that's for sure.
YOU MEAN: My hopes are crushed, but @ least he doesn't know I like him, and besides, he isn't sounding like a prize.
She: There are lots of fish in the sea-and some of them will have brains big enough to recognize how great you are.
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Now for the sake of comparison, here is how the same conversation might flow between 2 guys.

Bernard: Did you ask Rachel if she likes me?
Benjamin: Yah. She doesn't even know you're alive, man. Sorry.
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so now u get it?
hahaha^^
that's true huh??
*wink*

big difference huh?
haha~
there's the only thing i can say is just leave things the way it is!
dun change it cos it'll get even worst~
okay?

gtg~
bye~

-love strawberries-

happy memories together...

hi..
hey..
hello..
aloha..

=p
goodness..
i'm so annoyin..
lol..

hmmmm~
do u know something ??(i guess not if i dun say right?)
hahahaha~
we had a week holiday..
so my BFF came back from Ipoh ( where she's staying currently )
her name is Serene..
her parents let her back is cos they wana see their old fren that also came back from UK..
they are Uncle John and Aunty Betty..
but sadly 2 nights b4 Serene and her family came down to my hometown Uncle John passed away...
i heard the news from one of the aunty in church...
it was a real heart breaking news..
i was so sad once i heard the news and i could see flash back of times that i was with Uncle John..
he was so kind and such a cheerful person..
Serene and i used to swim with him when we were young..
he was a good swimmer and he used to play scrabbles with aunty betty before swimming..
they were so good in scrabbles that they'll take hours on the board!
haha..
they'll never give up would they??
just thinking of them now really makes me wish that God had never take him away from us...
and just to think how lonely aunty betty will be really hurts me a lot!
she wud have no partner to play scrabbles with and no one to say jokes to or even to hear them!
i guess if i were her i would have already be with him now..
i salute to her for being so strong...
i really cant be as strong as her u know?
it really just stabs at my heart whenever i think of him..
how sad i didn't get to see them the very last time!
but i guess it'll be better that way..
cos I'm scared i can't help myself but to just embarrassed myself..
and i guess i really know the meaning of "i'll only start appreciating something or someone after they're gone" now..
but really we had so much memories together...
i guess whenever i go to the swimming pool i'll just think of them sitting at their favorite spot playing scrabbles and chatting happily.. but it wud just be an illusion anyways..
*sigh*
its just sad for losing some one when u are so close to that person..
=(
so after that sad news.. i start appreciating the ones that i love...
i just spend the time i had with serene and yan wen..
they are the closest friends i ever had!
so i wud never want to lose them...
i wud save them in my heart...
so we spend our last day together in church..
we did silly silly things..
haha^^
its so hilarious..
u wana see some pics??
here's some...

we draw silly pictures of ourselves..
this is yan wen's pictures.. lolx huh? she's very blurr case and funny..
her drawings are the ultimate best! love her!!



~this is ME!! fuyoh!
7 is muh hubby's fav no.
so its mine too!









~this is SERENE!! haha! looks weird right??
she just adores $$$$$$$$!! hahaha^^
shopaholic friend.. love her!!!






~now this is the pretty ladies!!
serene is in the LEFT n
yan wen is in the RIGHT..





~i'm taking her that is taking her??
lols!!
=p
what weird friends i have..
lolx..
i admit i am too!!!



here is OUR drawing! haha! if u could see..some of us hate studying except for one.. that is YAN WEN!! she is so nerd-ish.. haha sorry yan wen.. true wat... lolx.....

hmmmm~
here's another pic...


~ this is Jerome.. my silly fren... haha.. he's very funny.. same like yan wen.. he has lots n lots of things common with yan wen u know?? they are so twins!!!
haha~ that lil guy is Jabez.. he's naughty but cute.. their brothers..




they are like a family to me u know??
i still have more pics..
but i scared there wun be any more space..
haha^^
hmmmm~
so that's all for now..
=P
peace!
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love
-silly babe-

a lesson to learn? u wish....................

hemmmmmmm
today is THE election day...
my sis n i was suppose to go to this place and help out...
den i went there n do things i didnt imagine i was gonna do..
i did useless stuffs which i didnt freakin like?!?!
why the heck in the first place i agreed to help out?!?!
wat the!!??

so i just went back home n do nothing!
den i tot of something
i pulled my bro n cousin to cycle with me..
i cycled kinda far from where my parents allows me to..
so i guess i was wrong by breakin rules huh?
but wat the?!?!?
its such a small town!
every friend of mine would usually cycle from one end of my town to the other...
and that is even further from i was..
ish..
their so strict!
i need my independence ASAP!!!!(if they wants me to live)
i wana be a free bird!
i free human!
n a free something!
i dont like the way the stops me from doin something i like!

so okay..
back to the story..
we cycled n cycled..
till i found out that my one of my BIKE's tires are punctured..
so i ask my cousin if there's any nearby patrol station
so he led me to one which is not that far but i guess its a bit far from my house...
(its not more than 3km okay?gosh!)
so we tried to pump it but my cousin assumed that my tire has a hole?!?!?!
but he said its no biggy so i wun make a big fuss out of it..
den we cycled till we changed our bikes??
i dunno why he took my bike?
n i used my bro's one which is damn short ,and come on i have long legs.. u cant expect much!
den my cousin just went off without waiting and i have to adjust myself towards the small bike.
and me n my bro was really pissed off dat my cousin was gone?!?!?!
so we waited n waited and finally decided to find him..
and for sure we cant..
there were roads n roads leading us to more ROADS!!
so we practically went cycling like mad fellows callin his name
so suddenly my phone rang n like DUH its from home!
and my youngest sis said that he was at my house already!
and he told my elder sis n my maid!
(those 2 really cant keep their mouth shut u know?!)
argh*****
i was so ~!@#$%^&*() pissed off..
and hurried home..
like the F1s on the road..
mad cyclers..
haha
when we reached i was so mad!
why did he spill it out?!?!?!
gosh*****
i'm so !@#$ed up!
aihs..
but wat to do..
it had already happened..
i cant wish for the time to turn back right?
(i actually did but wat the !@#$ it didnt work!???)
so i went in the house and guess wat?
THEY (my sis n maid) called my parents and told them eveything!
they spilled the BEANS!
how dumb are they!!!
they are practically useless!!!
argh!
i was so angry!
i was so annoyed!
i was so...
mixed with anger, sadness and most of all GUILT!
*sigh*

my heart was like sinkin in the deepest ocean with guilt!
i could feel so much of weight at my back!
and trust me..
that feeling wasnt a feeling that is to be enjoyed with...
i was so feel with guilt that i decided to go golf with my bro, and cousin n my younger sis..
i hit the balls so hard at the end..
it was like i was trying to hit the guilt as far as i could..
that feeling was so pain and hurting!
but a sigh of relief i smiled!
really..
after 2 hours of not only the feeling of guilt but also the feeling of being so useless cos everyone at the driving range is like hitting good shots but me?!??!!?
errrrrrrr........
LOL

so after golf i went home..
and my dad was asleep ( thank God i still have some time to be alive )
so i took a bath, a warm one..
shaking and shaking like a coward that is going to face trouble...
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
later when my dad is fully awake..
me n my bro walked in the room with a cane...
shaking and praying in heart..
my pulse rate was so high that i could feel my heart beating hard!!!
my father asked us to explain what happened and why did we do that..
we didnt answer the why but we did answer the wat...
my heart was screamin at me askin me to tell him that i want FREEDOM!!!
i wanted to really..
my voice is like coming out..
but my mouth was sealed.
it didnt dare to open cos i guess i was too afraid that he'll blame himself that he's a useless father.. i didnt want him to feel that way so i just shut up..
*sigh*
i got 2 canning's! *youch*
after the canning i felt something...
i feel so happy..
i felt so happy..
i dunno why..
i guess when i hugged him he said that he was worried if wat ever happens to us if we werent careful..
that was really touching..
i felt love..
i think..
but at least he was worried for me..
i didnt think i matter in his heart nor in anyone's heart...
i felt so happy to know that i was at least 1% in his heart...
it really was meaningful..
and it was worth it being canned just to hear those few words..

i guess this is a lesson to learn huh??
it sure is!!!
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but except for the part that i'm being grounded..
haha^^
kk..
i gotta go..

urs truly,
-strawberry emo-

eating problems??

hihi..
wow..
these past few days my hometown has been raining non stop..
*gosh*...
its really hard to cope up with a bad weather..
n i guess i was under the weather too..

my tummy has been rude to me!!!
i have really been loving food these few weeks... (like thats not usually me cos u know my keeping fit thing at bla bla..)
but i guess food is really an enjoyment of life...
same goes to sleeping for me..
haha..
LMAO
but sadly my tummy wasn't feeling well..
it was like i had anorexia or some sort..
i was vomiting even after a few drops of water..
it was getting worse...
i feel like vomiting every time i see food...
that was harsh huh??
it was really painful..
plus the taste of the vomit is so bitter..
ewww...
yuck..
i hate i hate!!!

i guess cos my tummy was under the weather...
but nvm..
i'm fine now...
its just hard to NOT eat..
but cool u know???
3-5 days not eating...
i lost 5 big big KG!!
wow huh??
thanks thanks..,.
but please take my advice...
EAT!!
dun NOT eat..
eating is great...
just watch ur limit that's all...
okay???

xoxo
=love strawberries babe..=
hugs n kisses

i'm sorry too! dun feel guilty no more...

hey~ i'm back again?? haha..
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hmmm~ i just read my sis's blog, hazel.. she said she feels guilty for what she has done to me..? aihs.. hey jie, if u're readin this dun be! probably as a sister i shouldn't be so annoying at times.. i know it slipped from your mouth cos i'm annoying huh? wat to do? this is me.. haha! i guess everyone does feel guilty.. i do too! i feel guilty in everything i do.. sometimes i feel guilty too for makin every1 disappointed in me... i know i'm always in trouble.. n makin dad n mum worried or angry.. i know i'm very notty! n always cant be a child like they want.. i also know that i'm not as clever as they want me 2... but i'm trying my BEST.. but i just cant help myself from closing my eyes once i opened the book! its so annoying opening a book full of words!!! i feel guilty at times that i'm born in this world too! i hope n wish that i could really survive my life till i'm ready to die.. i dun wana die committing suicide... i know its a big sin doing that... so i'm controlling.. who knows if one day a miracle come?? haha.. all i want in life is just happiness, love and care!!! i dun want money! i dun want fashion! i dun want everything else except happiness love and care!!! some times i dun feel that way... even if i'm around people but my heart feels like i'm sitting in the darkness waiting for someone to reach out to me!!!

but in life we cant expect too much.. it'll hurt us if we get disappointed at the end...

so we can only do our best in wat we do and strike! (strike for wat??) lolx... wateva la... strike for anythin oso can i guess.. haha lmao!

so i wish everyone
HAPPINESS LOVE n CARE!!!

PS: love one another to feel love... make someone happy to make urself happy... okay? hugz and kisses! love -lOvE straWbeRrIes..-

life shockin experience??? LOL

watsup?? (not ceiling.. its the beautiful sky!)

hmmmm~
life is really full of ups n DOWNS!!
i really just hope that every day of my life its always UPS not DOWNS!!
but sad that wouldn't happen huh??

hehe^^
today i had my st.john exam..
n really i was so freaked out when i had to perform CPR (cardio pulmonary resuscitation)...n chocking..
i was so panicked that i kept smiling away...
after doing those stuffs... DR.Hew (the coach) was pissed off with me n kept scolding me..
youch!!

later everything went smoothly (i guess??)
UNTIL!! when its time to go back!
i had no transport back...!
so i asked aunt Sally but she said she was not going back yet so i had to asked Mr.Chee
and he said ok so i was relieved..
n i really thought it was time to go back.. u should see how happy i was to go back to my darling darling bed to snore away to heaven u know???
but sadly we went for lunch with the leader's of st.john (i meant Dr.Hew, aunt Sally, n one more auntie)
i was the only small "kid" there...
how freaked out i was...
i was shaking like a trembling leaf..
life a dust in the wind...
*sigh*
they practically bullied me!!!
argh!
as for I'm a Chinese we had Chinese lunch..
n we always have to have either tea or soup..
so the elder picked tea so that's fine with me..
but for my short thinking.. they made me wash the chinese cups in hot water n *ouch it really hurt my poor lil fingers!! my tears was half way bursting out!!!
argh!!!!
n as if i'm a slave i have to pour the tea in their sups after they finish the tea in their cups!!!
I"M NOT A SLAVE N NEVER I WILL!!!
*argh!
i was in pain..

but what the heck, i'm in front of my parents's close friends!!!
i have to be strong...
so i sniffed away the tears n made my tough-looking-face!!!
so after LUNCH... torture arrives AGAIN!!
we went to the shop near by SECRET RECIPE n had break?!?!?!
(thank God i chose not to eat again if not i'll have lumps!!!)
so Dr.Hew took his bag in and took out the exam sheets!!!
n pulled mine out!!
gosh how embarrassing!!!
he then kept scolding me saying why this wrong and that wrong!!
i was so sad...
he made me do it again on a piece of paper!!
if details was not in his ways i got canings in public on my hand!!!
ouch!!!
then after everything...
i finally was let go!!
FINALLY!!
and again i thought i could go back already but sadly Dr.Hew made me go to his clinic and see a patient!!
a REAL one!!!!
he wants me to treat that patient too!!!!
aiks!!
i could feel me trembling again!!!
*sigh*

so i had to go...
and later we arrived at his clinic and his patient came along too!
that patient had a fractured ankle at his right leg..
Dr.Hew asked me to go in the room alone with the patient and see the difference between his right and left ankles!!
i panicked and went in..
i took down some useless details which didn't help much..
(how dumb of me)
but all i know is his right ankle was really bruised.. n he had an old wound too!
later i had to take down the patient's details like his name, age, and bla bla bla!!!
so useless!!!
its as if my ambition was a nurse or some sort!!
(hey, probably that will work?? since i had not come up with one, i could use this!)
but wat the shit!!
i wasn't ready to do that yet!
i had to take his pulse rate!
and fuyoh!
here's the good part!
i could hear his heart beat!!!
and plus i saw he has 6 full PACKS!!
the patient isn't that bad..
he's kinda hot!
haha...
after everything as in taking down some details n stuffs...
i was asked to stand by Dr.Hew and gave the patient his medicine and some advice on how to take care of his fracture!!!
fuyoh!
i liked it at the end of the day!
i went home jumping around knowing that i had a chance where some people can't!
i was so happy..
but yet i was really disgusted in seeing the patient's feet!
ewwww!
that was really disgusting!
haha..

okok..
i know this is kinda long..
so i'm gonna end it..
don't worry..

that's really all of today's story..
i'm really feeling kinda cooL!!
haha!

xoxo..
-LOVE strawberries babe-

wat waz i thinkin!!!

hihi!!
sorry i was really busy lately...
exam just started...
sports day comin up, have to catch up with my cheering!
schedule's are freakin packed up!
geeeesh...~

so continue with the title...
sounds like i was in trouble again huh?
ya i guess i did..
but sad i was the only one causin it...
gosh wat an idiot i was...
tell u wat, i thought i was a LESBIAN!!!
haha...
that's how silly i was...

story goes like this...
i made a friend bout 3 yrs ago...
we are now in the same school and in the same class too...
i'll put her name to S k?

S n i was really close when we first met each other...
we played like crazy mad fellows...
really we were really really happy then...
but slowly i kept gettin in trouble with her...
so we always fight n made up very very fast at times...
we got a bit closer and once or twice or more than that (haha) we really was FIGHTIN!!
i really mean it..
we was really not tokin at all...
n our friendship went kinda far away...
probally we had misunderstandings... (or was it just me...????)
aiks...

so i guess when we made up this year...
we are as normal as the first day we met each other (or was i just feeling that way?)
i start to feel Jealous whenever she talks n laughs with her other friends...
n i would be really down when she comes n talk to me after being HAPPY with other peeps..
so i started thinking whether i was NUTS!!
n i kept worryin bout this...
so i decided to tell her what i felt...
n i could feel that our friendship went far a bit after that..
i could sense that she doesn't liked it ( like duhhh who would???)
so probably she try avoidin a bit even if we were sms-in i still could feel it...

i was really upset n regrettin that i told her...
so i called up my best friend SERENE n told her...
thank GOD she was there for me..
she told me that i m not a lesbian.. n starts explaining saying that every close fren wud feel that way if one of the close fren bein really happy wit other peeps..
its nature..
haha^^
n probably i had my own probs n really needed some1 to be with me...
n i guess she's right!!
wow...

PS: Serene, i really am so freakin crazy happy that i have a CLOSE FRIEND LIKE YOU!!
n for S i really am sorry for makin you scared of me...aihs... i'm really sorry for causing much trouble..

and thanks for readin my blog!!
xoxo..
-LOVE strawberries babe-